I went to service with a heavy heart this morning.
Wouldn't elaborate why but y'know, I realized that perhaps all these while I've been like a dog, chasing its own tail, twirling 'round in circles, panting and sweating, makin' the most effort, but heading to nowhere. Each time the same issue surfaces, I tell myself ''Why not give it another try? Why not let's start anew again? There's no harm giving it another chance, does it?'' Then the hard truth slaps right on my face and when I was just about to go back to my naive self again, this voice screams right into my head ''JOANHOE! Wakey wakey! Time to move on! ''

It hurts.
It aint easy.
But I know this is the best.
When nothing is the best solution, then taking a step back might be the next best soultion.

Indeed, Fathers know best. During worship in service, He comforted and mended my brokeness.
That divine touch. Totally indescribable. Am worn out, but I am glad that I am 'stretched' . I renewed my faith with God today and it feels good. (''Like renewing contract ah?''-says my sheep) Haha. The last thing I want is to stay stagnant. To be in the same state and condition. I am extremely disgusted and totally abhore my old habits and ways. Seriously, I can't imagine how God could put up with that. When I start to think about it, I simply can't help but go ''Ewwwww''' and ''YUCKSSSSSSSSS''


Ohh and I just discovered something(: When one needs encouragement, one could try encouraging others first. It helps! I didn't really expected encouragement, but I was writing some cards for our unit's Core team members and before taking the pen, I told God that Im not gonna write for the sake of writing with plain ''Jiayos'' and ''Complete CG08!'' or ''XXX school for Jesus!''. Instead, I want to write specifically and thanking them from the deepest depth of my heart which I think are different from others but had impacted many. At first I was worried that I would not be able to thnk of anything to write. But as soon as I start writing the first sentence, it all became so smooth. And as I thank them with a heart of gratitude and appreciation, I realized that I am actually wearing a smile while writing it. And as I encourage, I myself am very much encouraged by the spirit of the people, the extra mile they went for others, and simple everyday decisions making which reflects and speaks volume of their values and love for God. Amazing(:



I will stand strong, for nothing outweighs my fears, worries, problems & hindrances! :D