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Sunday, September 28, 2008


HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY LOW SILUN!
See? This is our 全家福 , missing no one out except for Irish who had gone back to AMK
Hee..No worries, we’d still do what we do yearly without fail when it comes to your Birthday(:
Hint: Wet and cold

Thankyou for being the loudest and crappiest.
Without you, this group wouldn’t be complete.
Though you can be quite irritating with your penetrating voice,
we love you still(:
Hahahaha!

Thursday, September 25, 2008
Tossed and turned but I still can't get myself to a short nap before my revisions.
And then, these names slowly flashed through my mind


Angeline
Anatta
BengTe
ChengAn
GuoHan
HuiChan
Irish
Kelly
Joyce
JianXing
LiangPing
MingYang
Siying
Silun
Uncle Gerald
XinRu
YaoZhen
YinKay
YongQing
YokeLeng

ZhanQi
ZhangYan
ZhiYong
Zoey



I can't thank God enough for placing all these beautiful people in my life who had been constantly encouraging me, pushing me towards my limit, believing in me & telling me that I can make it through at the end of the race.
Each time I wanted to give up, you people pulled me up.
Each time I wanted to rant and complain, you guys gave a listening ear.
Your smses always came on time(:
Thankyou for all your words of encouragement and taking the initiative to assist in subjects which Im weak at.
I wouldn't let you all down, I can't bear to and I can't afford to.
I will grit my teeth and hang on, come what may.
I promise.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Went down to bugis with YongQing last Sunday to get the watch which I'd been eyeing for a month. YongQing claimed that it's very manly but she still got the same one anyway. Haha! It's only for a few days and already it has some sentimental value to it(:


Met JoyceTan this evening for shepherding, and just as usual, I really enjoy talkin' to her. I could just share my heart out and not get bothered by how she'd see me. The teaching came in handy and on the right time- 'Mastering the art of possibility'.

Indeed, the primary reason why we think that 'it's impossible' , 'will never make it' or 'sure die', is because our focus is wrong. We think about the outcome, think about the things that we have to sacrifice in the process, think about how we should have worked harder or how things would
have turned out better if we hadn't made the wrong choice when the last thing we'd think about and do is to take hold of today. Ironic, isn't it?


I shall stop allowing myself to dwell into the '' I should have'' state of mind and start shifting my focus to ''Now I will''.. I want to have Faith. Not Fear. The last thing I want is to let Fear outweighs my Faith. Hahaha, I remember giving a teaching to my caregroup about Faith and Trustin the Lord and I could recall vividly that I said something which made them laugh but yet nod in agreement -''Shut up and just trust God''. Haha, I shall do just that.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

The long-awaited sentosa trip! Haha the girls and I zoomed to Sentosa as soon as the last paper for prelims was over. Man, I really had a great time with them. Didn't wanted to go down to the waters, but lookin' at the fun they were having in there, I resolutely pushed all my 'kia-si-ness'' aside and joined them. Now, my arms and face are red from all the sun burnt. Haha, it was a short break to kinda 'reward' us for mugging for Prelims. Now that it's over, we're now all heading to the final lap.





We then headed down to Vivo City to have our dinner. We even suggested to go eat at 'Crystal Jade' when there's only 10bucks or less in everybody's pocket. Haha! So we switched to LongJohn's. Due to the massive crowd, we took away our meals and continued to makan at the nearby playground(:




This is how red we all were!






Haha thanks all, for the great day. Thankyou, Silun, for your post too. It was really sweet of you(: I enjoyed myself a whole lot. This is just a short break. The O's monster's not defeated as yet. Let's all continue to strive harder for this final lap alright? Jiayou!! Mug hard and celebrate even harder after that! GO! GO! GO!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008


LOVE

A word often said and misused.
What’s the definition of love, really?
A strong feeling of fondness, one might say?
An act of kindness, perhaps?
I’ve been thinking about the true definition of this four lettered word
It’s not as if I’m insecure and am lacking love or anything like that (LOL!)
But I guess the definition I have of this four lettered word in mind is rather superficial
And being the ultimate ‘thinker’ myself, I went to do some thinking..

The definition of love in the bible:1Cor13:4-8
''Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.''

I can’t help but shake my head after reading this verse. I guess the love I have for the people around me is just as superficial as the definition I have in mind. Yeah, indeed, true love is limitless and has no boundaries. A great classic example would be the Man who died on the cross some thousands years ago for undeserving people (I wanted to put morons) who does nothing but sin. If that isn’t love, then tell me, what is? They often say that if one wants to seek love, one has to first go back to the source of love. Now I’ve finally able to comprehend this statement.

Substitute the word ‘love’ , with the name of our Savior and you’ll know what I mean.

''Jesus is patient, Jesus is kind. Jesus does not envy, Jesus does not boast, Jesus is not proud. Jesus is not rude, Jesus is not self-seeking, Jesus is not easily angered, Jesus keeps no records of wrongs. Jesus does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Jesus always protects, Jesus always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. JESUS NEVER FAILS''

It’s a simple and fundamental lesson learnt.
But I am just so glad that I’ve learnt it in a different way this time (:

Monday, September 15, 2008




Was happily munching and enjoying my drumstick from the sumptuous dinner that Grandma had prepared this evening and Mommy as usual, was having her meal and feeding my One year and 6months old nephew at the same time. She handed him a morsel of chicken and insisted him taking it with his own hands to consume it. And then again, it got me into thinking as I rewarded myself for the second drumstick (Haha!)


I could recall how happy the whole family was when BabyDaryl began crawling from one end to the other. We were even more ecstatic when he was able to stand up and walk during his First birthday before falling down and starting it all over again. And then I began comparing it to myself. I am a seventeen year old and I could walk, run, jump, roll and better still, I am able to do it all at the same time, let alone crawl. Then how come my family aren’t as excited for me? Why didn’t they cheer and spur me on like how they did to my (naughty) nephew?


Haha I wasn’t being insecure and self-centered, but I know there are more behind all these thoughts. So I began asking God to help analyze my thoughts. And this was what I’ve got:


Baby Daryl’s every ‘firsts’ in his life is just like our every breakthroughs in our lives (Be it physically/ spiritually)Our leaders and siblings in Christ are often spurring us on and pushing us to our utmost potential whenever we are in- the- process of having our own baby steps in raw areas which we’d never ventured or stepped in before. But yet each time when we’ve successfully hopped over the hurdles of fear, the people around us are proud of us. Imagine this. If Man are already so happy for our breakthroughs and victories, what more about God? Months and years after our breakthroughs and victories, we forget about it. It’s rubbed away from our memories. We forgot how we actually wanted it coming to pass sooo much at the first place. We forgot how much God was moving then and how he remained so faithful towards us. However, the truth is, even after the first breakthrough, the many breakthroughs coming along would still be precious to God. Remember the part when I said my family was so awed and happy when Baby Daryl took his first step? That’s the joy God has for us. Multiply it by hundreds and thousands. In the long run, those breakthroughs we once had and were once so proud of, would mean nothing to us. The scariest part is that we’d start pushing God out of the picture, thinking that we had all managed to achieve it not by the strength of God, but ours. Not by the ability of God, but ours. Man, it’s indeed scary.


I have no idea what’s the exact point I want to put across is. But I was very much reminded of God’s faithfulness and love for us. Presently, CG08 is the goal we are striving towards to and want it to come to pass so badly and desperately. I’d like to encourage you all to journal down your feelings and conviction. Man are absent minded. Whatsmore, feelings fade after a short period of time. Therefore, pen down how God had been so so faithful towards us. The many blessings and fruits He’d poured down. CG08’s gonna come to pass, for sure. I know it’s still early, but let’s continue to keep this thankful heart towards Him even after CG08 ends. At least, when we think ‘bout this victory, there’s a journal for us to refer to and know that it was God who used and equipped us to win this battle. Not the other way ‘round.

Sunday, September 14, 2008
I know my future’s in your hands
All of my hopes and dreams and plans
You gave me strength to live
And faith to succeed
I believe in you
Because you believe in me


Father, ever since you told me straight to my heart that you believed in me and that I am capable to shine in both pastoral and studies, I’d decided to resolutely pushed aside all my fears, worries and concerns. I know that as long as I walk in Your pace and in Your direction, I’d never go wrong. With a few stones, David was able to defeat Goliath. So can I. Take away all the negative thoughts within me and fill it with Your word. I never believed in myself. But You do. And who am I to say that I can’t when You, the mightiest of all, says that I can? Amidst this examination period, God, I want to have even more spiritual breakthroughs! I want to be even more prayerful. I know you’ll never walk out on me or abandon me. I’ll not flap my own wings and fly, ‘cuz I’d fall before I know it. ThankYou, Daddy, for Your faithfulness to me. At the end of the day, all Glory goes back to You, and completely You alone. Amen..

Thursday, September 11, 2008






I am supposed to be mugging right now.
But I guess I wouldn't be able to concentrate unless these thoughts within me are settled.
When I heard of the news from mom, the one that I first thought of to talk to is you.
Went to look at several photos and the above are just one of the many photos which made me smiled.
Thankyou for being here for me and listening to my complaints these few days.
My phone is filled with all your encouraging smses
Thankyou for going through this crucial period of time together with me.
I will hang on.

Monday, September 08, 2008
It's raining cats and dogs outside.
Nothing beats the feel of watching the raindrops cascading down my window panes and listening to my favourite song, ''HeyJude'' at the same time.
What a blissful yet emo moment.
It would be too, an excellent weather to get myself tucked in bed and feel the warmth of my bedsheets
But before hitting the pillow, there's something else that I've first gotta hit.
The Books.

Sunday, September 07, 2008
Had a great time sharing with YongQing last night in Yishun Bus interchange, missing countless of our buses. And yes, indeed, we're serving for the audience of One and pleasing for the audience of One. Man are and should never be the reason why we do the things we do. Sometimes, I am really bothered by what others see and think about me. Especially so when there are false rumours speculating around. I used to go all the way to fight for my stand and clear all dubious statements 'bout myself. But you see, those are just insecurities. It's all 'bout ME. And that definitely shouldn't be the way. Now I've came to realize that it's simply pointless to fight for my stand. Pointless, pointless, pointless. The One above see all that I do and He is the only One whom I shall and will please. Joan, it's time to sharpen your focus!


God too, had been using me to speak to the people around me recently.

#1- A sister had recently left God and Yokeleng asked me ''If God knows that she would leave God later in her walk with Him, then why does He permits it?''. I asked God for wisdom and slowly answered her questions one by one. One of the things that I've told her was that God might be using HER to influnce her directly/indirectly and bring that sister back to God's arms.
And the next day, Yokeleng smsed me and told me that God is indeed using her to bring that sister back and she was so convicted by God. That alone, made my day (:

#2-Jade was rather discouraged 'bout certain stuff and God told me to remind her 'bout the exact thing that He spoke to me early this year when storms were just shooting like fiery javelines towards me. It was something like
''Great Dreams/Goal-> Great testings -> Great Influnce, Great Impact ->Great Victory! ''
And so, I smsed Jade and told her 'bout it and this was her reply ''Wow, that spoke to me alot. Thanks alot, you came at the exact timing!'

#3- Went studying with NorthA girls after service last evening and somehow, God just told me that there's something troubling Xinru and that I had to approach and talk to her. But for some reason, I was unable to approach her. However, later at night, she smsed me and told me that actually she had something to share with me.

Seems like it has all got to do with texting. Haha! God is indeed real and moving.
Those smses never fails to bring a smile onto my face.
and God too, never ever fails to amaze me(:

Wednesday, September 03, 2008


My confidence level when it comes to academics would definitely be a number with a negative sign. Like what my cousin said, I really gotta stop thinking 'bout the uncertainties within me and start thinking towads the postivie side & look up unto God. Worrying doesn't work things out. Nor would it help me in defeating the big O' monster coming my way. I also came to realize that the more I panic, the more nothing is done. I shall just take a chill pill and do my best(:

After spending some time watching some HongKong drama with my family last night, I went back to my room, grabbed my pen & journal, hopped on to my bed & began writing/ranting/pouring out to God. It's been months since I last penned my thoughts in there. I had a shioking good time having a deep heart-to-heart session with Him and it feels great (: It is always so comforting to know that there's someone who listens to you 24/7 with not even a tinge of judgement.

God, I am ready for more(:

Ariella Joan Hoe

30'Oct'91
God is my love
Singing is my Passion

genesis_joan@hotmail.com

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