A DAY OUT WITH GUOHAN !

=) yeah . went home right after school y'day . Guohan had achievals till 3.00pm so i can actually take my own sweet time to walk home or go makan with da gurls . But i really missed baby nephew . so yeah , chiong home . haha . Met Guohan at 4.00pm . He was perspiring lik hell la . okie . so we were heading to vivo city and we laughed really loud in the MRT . damn hilarious can . talked bout so many sill stuff . we went to different shops to try clothes and boy , Guohan have good taste okie ! i esp. love the black dress he chose for me . went to Gloria Jean's after that for a cake and drink . and we laughed lik hell la .

*was waiting for our drinks .

me : sit where ?
guohan : *points at sofa .
me : okie .
guohan : but very hard to talk la . so far apart .
me : den where ?
guohan : *points at the corner
me : huh.. so troublesome.. muz squeeze in .
guohan *faints

*after we got our drinks .

i managed to slip in nicely la .
me : EH ! I CAN MAN ! wa .. didnt know i so slim
*laughters

i was acting kiasu all the way la . damn hilarious . i forgot the jokes i cracked though . so sad .
we chose a bag for guohan's cousin and i bought a pair of ear rings . and decided to go home .
we walked pass breadtalk and i suggested to buy somethin light to eat , and we saw this super duper huge bread for jus $2.20 . its bigger than my face. i cant post the photo though . nvm . if u guys really wanna see , cum find me . lols . it was so much fun la .
guohan and i are really good friends but we dun really go out togetha . this is the first and i've enjoyed myself so very much ! i've always admired the way he handle things . i find that i can totally relate to him . we're both really straight forward people and maybe thats why we can click . we shared a lot and we really think alike . Not many ppl share the same view as me . guohan is the first , i can say . talked about friendship , pressure and stuff like that . hey , lets hang out soon agen man ! =)

talked to guohan ytd and i had a better perspective now . people who know me either love me or hate me . kinda extreme , i can say . i used to hear ppl say im stuck up and flirtatious . when u dun smile , they say u're proud . if you get along with guys better than the gals , they say u're a flirt . i was so mad at those people . they dun even know me , who are they to judge me ? and even till today , yes , lik wad guohan said , i may be too straight forward to others but i really should not let others manipulate me or change the way i am . i am who i am . accept it . dun manipulate me .




ahh . how i miss those care free days .


i jus wan to be happy .

Joan is back ! ya-hoo !

okie . as promised , gonna type a really long post . heh .

21st March 2007
yeah ! my baby nephew !

big eyes .
long eyelashes.
deep double eye lid .
long fingers .
nice soothing smell .
red cheeks .

the atmosphere at home is so different now .
everyone are all so focused on baby nephew .
i enjoy sitting at the bed side , watching his every movement , every expression .
i lik to carry him but mom n dad said im pampering him too much , haha .
was talkin bout baby nephew with the gurls in class on thurs .
haha . i was so talkative .

right . sentosa trip on last sunday was a superb one . our group won twice !!! hahaha . beach volley ball , running around , games and everythin . hahaha . well the leaders in our unit are transferred to another unit . so sad la . was supposed to stay a lil while longer at istana park after service but my relatives came to our house and they wanted to see me . so yeah . went home . i missed so much fun . i wanna see the video !!! =((

was at the mrt station .
smsing some fren .
then this guy stood beside me .
''ahem''
*looked up .
ohhhhhhhhh.... its hairuddin
dont really know him but yeah ..
kinda know him and his bandmates during speech day .
we talked bout school and stuff lik that .
the train came soon after but it was too packed .
so hairuddin and i decided to wait for another one .
i was staring blankly and he laughed .
u know , i kinda hate bumping to ppl i dun really know . bcuz , there'd be this awkward silence between us .

i knew he was alighting at yishun .
so i alighted at khatib .

me : bye . take care .
hairuddin : take care too . enjoy studying .
me : enjoy workin' =)

after i stepped out of the train , i was like '' phew........."
hahahaha .

moral of the story : run as far as u can when u see someone u dun really know .
hahaha . JUST KIDDIN'




okie .. not a really long one . heh ..

okie . im fine , peeps . =)
thank u all for ur encouragements .
i feel loved <3

no much time left .
shall post some other time .
i promise , its gonna be real loooonnnggggg .

i'll keep everyone in prayer !
take gd care !

was writing a letter to my cousin , vanessa , in my room days ago .
the letter was really long .
i had photos sticked on to the wall of my room .
one photo showed me and daddy acting lik zombies .
one photo showed myself when i was onli 3 yrs old .
one photo showed my sis , vanessa and i in the playground with the same hairstyles . long hair with little braids .
another photo showed myself when i was 14 .

i stared at those photos for a very long time .
suddenly , this feeling overwhelmed me .
i cant describe it .
i miss those days .
no stress .
no worries .
i miss it .
i really do .
if i were given a choice , i wouldnt wan to grow up .
daddy once said even if im old , i would still be his little girl .
yes . im still gonna be daddy's little girl .

sometimes i just wish to stay at home for the rest of my life .
i'd rather not get in contact with anyone in this world .
then maybe things wouldnt turn out this way .
then maybe i wouldnt be so worried .
then maybe i wouldnt be so scared .
then maybe ..
then maybe ..

i feel so small .
people around me are huge and tall .

i feel discouraged .
im afraid things would not work out .

im disatisfied .
i thought i could do better .

im feelin' down .
i thought i didnt do my part .

im tired .
i dun think i could carry on .

i want the power to wipe away sadness

i always tell people to hang on when they're feelin down .
but my words just cant seem to appeal to myself .
i always thought i wouldnt cry .
but i ended up cryin' in front of others .
i always thought i would not fall .
but i fell so hard .

vanessa : '' are u feelin stressed ? im sure u are . all problems surrounding u . "

how did u know .. i thought no one knew..



''have faith , joan . have faith. ''
'' its okie , joan . evrythin's gonna be fine''
'' u can do it . u really can . ''

people , for ur information , that guy in the picture below is not my boyfriend . ive got better taste . OOPS . haha . nah . he's just my classmate and we like to tease each other . so yeah .

maths trail in vivo city was awesome ! poor yinkay got so frustrated over the groupings of our class . i was in group 2 and was teamed up with yinkay , jianxing , mingyang and dominic . my maths isnt good . so almost all of the calculations were done by the guys and yinkay . my bag was really heavy then cuz i wanted to bring some books to go back to study . so i asked mingyang to take for me . surprisingly , he did . heh . i always thought guys in my class werent that gentleman . somethin embarrassing happened later and i was made the joke out of it for the next few days . [ hint : goddie bag named by dominic] . okie . jianxing and i exchanged our bags later and he went through all my stuffs , my organizer etc . and he kept playing with my poodie bookmark . after the trail , we were told that we gotta share the same bus with another class . and we were lik "WHAT ??!!!"
as expected , there werent enough seats and yinkay , silun and i gotta squeeze together in 2 seats . the guys were standing . we had loads of fun . although that childish liangping took the cover of the seat to cover on my head TWICE ! i teared la . cuz everyone were laughin and i was so mad . but later , i couldnt stop laughin myself when bengte took the cover to cover on Jorie's head . lols .
all in all , i think our class really bonded after the trip to ITE simei and vivo city maths trail . =)

got back my results yesterday . i expected somethin' worse but everythin was quite average . dad and i went back to school for the parent-meeting-session in the evening . it was hilarious man .

miss ng : joan loves to read . but she really should start practising her Maths . she's really weak in that .

daddy : yeah . There are like , stacks of books in her room .

miss ng : exactly . everytime after she'd finished a test before others , she would turn back and take her book out and read . everytime when i see her she's reading . two days later , another new book .

i was grinning all the way la . i mean , shouldnt a teacher actually encourage students to read ? miss ng even told me to do 50 sums of maths qns in the 10 yrs series . and i was like ''what ?! 50 ?! " ...

yeah . i guess its high time to hit the books . *yawn