I wanna thank God for placing these people in my life ..

Joyce - Hey shepherd , i know you may nvr see this but yeah . ive really learnt alot from you in this one month plus . Thank you for seeing that potential in me even when i was doubting myself , encouraging me and affirming me, tellin' me that i can be who God wants me to be and do what God wants me to do . That meant alot .

Melissa - I really thank God for giving me YOU as my very first sheep . Like ive said before , im really no greater than you . we're both at the same level , aiming for the same goals , serving the same God . Im learining from you too =)

Liyan - Hey there gurl . I admire your optimisim and attitude in handling problems placed in ur life . I can really see the change in you and thank you for going that extra mile for me .

Vivien - To me , you're a wonderwoman . Haha . U're so young but u can do so much ! You have no idea how much i've learnt from you . Sometimes when i feel at lost , thinkin wats the purpose of doing the things that im doing , i see you and i see the value of serving God .

Weiloong - Yo broteh . Thank you for bringing me to church , if not i wouldnt be who i am today , doing the things that im doing now . Sometimes when i think about it , im so amazed by it . Thank you for your listenin' ear for the pass comin to 3 and a half years .
Genius Hoe B_____ [sec two nick] wil jiayou ! =)

Anatta - Hey bestie . we've been through so much and we've come a long way huh ? Thank you for accepting me for who i am , tolerating my nonsense for all these years . Thank you for being there for me when everybody were turnin' their backs against me . You supported me all way through and i dunno how will i ever cross that hurdle w/o your love and concern . Love you .

Linda - Really .. i cant thank you enough for last year . If you weren't there last year , i would have gone nuts . Thank you for always tapping on my shoulder tellin me ''it's okie'' . I really appreciate it .

Guohan - I miss u la ! where have u been ? Thank u for being my ''jiemei'' although you were being forced to . haha . I nvr fail to enjoy myself whenever im with you . U're someone i can totally relate to and u're definitely the ''rare'' person who share the same thoughts as me . U're also someone whom i can really be myself , w/o bothering if there are any veggies stuck in between my tooth . hahaha . Thank you for being crazy with me .

Zhangyan - I miss the times we had . U'd cycle me back home after every outing in sec one and two . Thank u for ur help in badminton . U're my idol . Thank u for ur encouragements too .

Nadia - Lessie ! i will nvr forget u , u this laughing machine ! haha . i miss last yr . Emcee-ing with you was definitely a joy . Good luck in everythin that you do , pal .

Vanessa - ahhh . Tht ever oh-so-understanding cousin . It seems like we're always facing the same thing at the same time ! I definitely dun call that a coincidence . Thank you for being there with me since young . U're someone i could really confide in . Love you always !

Zoey - HIMBO! hahaha . Thank you for backing me up last yr . That meant a hell lot . I miss going to ur place , havin so much fun with u n ur sis . Thank u for always lettin' me play ur computer when im there . i see u as someone independent and intelligent . u're awesome , cousin ! Love you too ..


And not forgettin my daddy and mommy . daddy , thank u for teaching me ''To err is human'' . Mommy , thank u for always reminding me to bring tissues and umbrella out . LOL . Nah . thank u for giving birth to michelle , my sister . I dun have to say much . You guys know i love you . <3

I have the urge to blog but im not sure what i wanna blog about . sheesh .

''The itsy bitsy spider crawled up the water spout .
down came the rain and washed the spider out ,
out came the sun and dried up all the rain ,
and the itsy bitsy spider crawled up the spout again . "

This song has been playing in my mind again and again and again and again
and to tell u the truth , it freaks me out .
ha yeah .
mom just bought this music thingy which played this only song for baby nephew .
and whenever he crys , i would carry him and play that song and i would too , sing along with it .
and the next day , that song kept playing in my mind .
kinda scary .
There was this time when i was so engrossed in doing SUDOKU .
I kept doing and doing for an hour or so .
and i dozed off .
and guess wad i'd dreamt about ?
NUMBERS !
Believe me , i nvr did sudoku again . haha

wellwell .
had my chinese paper yesterday .
it was quite okie la .
i think i did fine .
had my english papers today .
english paper one was okie .
but the compre in paper two was kinda hard .
but yeah . all in all , it was manageable .

Boo~
Ive just finished reading my library books .
shall go to the library someday .
I cant stand it when im book-less .

I guess my greatest regret in life so far is not being able to maintain tht friendship with my very best friend . I feel ... i dunno . i cant describe it .

I am always trying to closer that gap between me and her . And all these time , i was constantly lying to myself , thinkin that we do not need to spend everyday together to keep this frienship going and growing . I thought we were close , just like the past . Like there are no walls or any kind of barriers that keep us away from each other . But i was wrong . Ive only got one best friend . I value her just like how i do to my family members . I guess i no longer stand the place which ive once stood before in her life . I think things have changed . Yes , although i dun wan them to . Things always dun go the way i expect 'em to , and sometimes things look pretty well from the surface , but deep down , it's another thing . She wasn't there when i needed her .
we used to be so freakin' close . why do everything always slips away from my very own hands ?
Ive cherished it all so much .

Sometimes , I really just feel like runnin' away from this reality world . Because it hurts you so much to know the truth , and it hurts you even more when the truth is lying right in front of your eye and you just have to jolly well accept it even if you dun even feel lik it .

I only have one true friend . And she's slowly drifting furthur away from me ....

Three words . I- give- up .

Yeah . Everythin's over . Im throwing in the towel . I can't deal with crap like this anymore . I feel like the dumbest person ever . Ever felt like you're so loved by people around you and the next moment , they all walk all over you and treat you lik trash ? Ive experienced it . More than that , i should say . You name it . But surprisingly , i feel much more at peace now . People around me gave me that suspicious and worried look . Dont worry , people . Im fine . Im gonna stand tall . Nothin's gonna make me fall . For now , that is . Ha .. yes . was at the verge of runnin to the toilet to cry out loud . But i know perfectly well that emotions can be controlled . Obstacles , difficulties and problems make you grow . Im glad i didnt react the way i reacted last year . It's okie , joan . It's all part and parcel of what teenagers my age have to go through . Who said being a teenager is easy ought to be shot . haha . JUST KIDDIN' !

But honestly , this is what i call LIFE . yeah . Any negative things you can think of , definitely defines LIFE . If LIFE were to be a living person right in front of me , i would have grabbed his neck and slap it several times before i wring it off his head . haha . JUST KIDDIN' !

I feel like there's this invisible hand tapping on my shoulders , tellin me its okie . sigh .
Its so sad . I truly thought things worked out fine . It's kinda amusing how you've helped someone in their life so much and the next thing you know , they're turnin' their backs against you and push you outta their lives . Im so dumb . yes . Tell me about it . How naive am i to think in such a way .

Its oh-so-over .
wanna make me fall ? Bring-it-on !

=)

woah . haven been bloggin for so long yeah .
the photos were uploaded by kelly cuz my com's down , u see .
and i have to head to cc to use . so yeah .
kinda troublesome .
thanks kelly , by the way .

wellwell .
was supposed to go sun-tanning at sentosa with the girls on friday .
but kelly's got somethin on at home . silun too . so yeah .
we called it off .
the girls are going next sat .
but there's service . so yeah
sorry girls .

ive watched the cruxification of Jesus on friday night on cable
and yeah , i teared .
its so sad to see the people around me living without Him .
the fact that he died for us is simple enough to acknowledge Him .
He was beaten .
He got spat by others.
He was slapped .
He was nailed on the cross FOR US .
can u imagine it ?
He died for us when we werent in this world at that point of time .
i love Him simply because He first loved me .
and He's waiting for the lost souls out there to go back to Him .
sigh .

Yesterday's easter service was great !
yeah .
i agree with xinru .
the Altar call was really powerful .
i especially like the part when pastor Shirley was singing .
those paintings .
i guess many hearts were touched then .
went for CLM later that evening .
and i totally regretted wearing a skirt .
=.=
got a good news from mom .
and shes even sure that baby nephew is her lucky baby .
she said shes gonna kiss his lips till its swollen .
haha .

baby nephew is fine .
daddy always sings to him everynight .
haha .
u dunno how very Loved u are , baby .
ur aunt here love u so very much too .

last night ,
i put my hand on the baby
and i prayed .
I thanked God for creating this little life .
I thanked God for answering my prayers .
I thanked God for putting everything in place in my life .
i simply cant thank Him enough
he has provided me with so much .

had a quite a hard time earlier on .
but cousin vanessa shared this with me ,
and i was so refreshed after that .
lemme share it with u ppl .
here goes .

Happy b'day Guohan !!! =)
be sure to enjoy ur day today !

okie . let me think wad i had done a few days ago . ..

right ! class outing to snowcity on friday !
it was so much fun !
went to silun house with kelly and yaozhen to change and drop our bags .
had some food cooked by silun's mom . thanks alot yeah . =)
met the gurls at 725 and went back to school .
heard a shockin news .
hmm . not really shockin though .
the boys in our class had a fight with another grp of boys from sec three .
nono . i should say ,
the boys from sec threes PICKED UP a fight with the boys in our class .
weiqiang got a cut on his finger .
dominic was limping .
hope u guys get well soon !

so yeah . snowcity w/o the jokers in our class wasnt really THAT fun
but we enjoyed ourselves , anyhow .
learnt to make ice cream . but it ended up tasting more like milk . haha .
the temperature in snowcity was -6.5 degree celcius ?
yeah . haa . the gurls and i were trembling .
and that was the time we really had ''cold feet'' . LOL .
the boys threw snowballs at us .
and the poor gurls gotta duck here and there .
went down the slopes for like 4-5 times .
yelling at the top of our lungs .
that one hour really passed really quickly .

had some photos together with classmates
[shall ask kelly to help me upload if possible ]
and headed to mac soon after .
liangping squeezed into yinkay's sweater and it got everyone laughin .
chan saw this cute innocent lookin guy .
haha . sulyana sobo-ed her and she was hopping mad .
so hilarious .

haha . i really lurve my class man .
the laughters .
the jokes and all .
im sure gonna miss 'em all when we graduate .
am so afraid that i'll not make it thru this yr ..