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Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Was in great pain last night . Vomitted and all . Luckily im better today cuz school was fun :)

Listened to songs with Siying while doing Maths today .
Oh , she even gave me one really sweet card .
Words , words , words .
I love it , dear :)
Thanks yea

I don't know what's up with Michelle lately . She haven't been coming home. Mom's kinda angry and she thought sis's like treating this home like a Hotel . Check in and out whenever she like . Dad didn't say anything but i can just see that worried and disappointing face . I guess they've given up of hope for her already . I thought she will mature after that incident . She did , for just a short while and everythin' was as per normal again . I have a really bad feeling . Mom and dad too . I guess she really needs to have her head bang on the wall really hard to differentiate what's right and wrong . A mother of one . She's got responsibilities . I was never close with my Sister . Yea , that's pretty sad . I'm mad at her . I'm always there when she needed me but she's nowhere to be found when i needed someone to hold on to besides my friends . I remember once when she was in Primary 5 and I was just a Primary 3 student . She got bullied by her friends and i voiced out and defended my sis but instead of thanking me and appreciating it , she pulled my hair and asked me to shutup . I can still remember this incident so vividly . I don't know why too . But she's still my sis and i Love her . At the meantime , I shall just pray that God will watch over her and that she'll really grow and not act like a kid any longer . I don't want anythin' from her . She dont't need to be there when i need someone . I just want her home ...

Monday, August 27, 2007
Im sure about it ..
but yet it's all still uncertain ..









anyway
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

Sunday, August 26, 2007
My diary had always served as a useful mirror . I can just put my feelings out and then stand back and take a look . The examination nearly always change my perspective. I'm glad that i've been writing. All the thoughts and feelings i had wrestled with in my sleep that had weighed so heavily upon myself felt light at this moment . So many things had felt so intense these past few days , and i wasn't feelin' really good about it. But not now. Not today.

Sometimes , the test of true love for a friend is found not in holding on to tht person but in lettin' 'em go. Sometimes when we step back and let go, it gives God room to do what He's been trying to do all along. It's like He's been waiting for us to get out of the way.

* It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it .
But it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives .

Wednesday, August 22, 2007
My 'lil boy , My Sunshine

Baby nephew has turned 5 ..... month old just ytd . HAHA . He has been really naughty and playful lately . He just can't sit still and eat and he hates drinking plain water . He likes it when people talk and play with him and he loves attention . Oh and he enjoy watching the telly . Is this how babies behave ? haha . But having him at home is just wonderful . A cheerful but hot-tempered boy. Both daddy and i agree that the upbringing is very impt. So i shall be a nice and supportive aunt . =) I'm not sure if i'll be the strict aunt or the aunt that simply pampers the nephew a lottttt . Ohwell . I shall see =)


A day in East Coast Park on Sunday
I forgot to upload the pictures of the sceneries i've took that day . :( It's really beautiful . It was a tiring but happy . At the beginning , some of us actually regretted coming cuz there were alot of walking here and there and we were all very discouraged when not many people want to buy the goodie bags from us . We were practically dragging our feet luh . But when everythin' ended , we decided to walk to Mac's and on the way there , we just sang and laugh and play . Really really happy . :))

Sunday, August 19, 2007
THANK YOUS =)
Joyce - Thank you for ur understanding , patience , guidance , trust and listenin' ear . Love ya , shepherd .
Tingting - Thank you for taking that first step to account . Am really very glad . =)
Melissa - Thank you for being so obedient . Although ure gettin' more n more like me , so thick-skinned . Heh .
I love you girls . <3
Would like to share more but there's alot going on in my head now . So yeah . Shall update soon . =)

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Have been uploading lotsa pictures lately . Haha . Yeah that picture above , it's my diary . I took this picture after writing last night . I don't know why too . I just love writing . No , not writing essays and compositions . But writing my own thoughts and feelings . I started really writing jus last year . I don't write everyday . I only write when im exceptionally happy/sad/ecstatic or when it's a special occasion . And i've been writing quite a lot lately . Good sign ? Haha . I really think everyone should own a diary . It's .. i dunno how to phrase it but i think it's good to pen down things that you've learnt , experienced and felt . The first few pages were written before i was a Christian . It's filled with anger and negative thoughts . But it's totally different now . =) I love this diary cuz it's bought by my parents . I fell in love with it when i first saw it and it was rather expensive . Twenty-two dollars . Haha . I took quite a long time to persuade my parents to buy it for me . I especially love the last page of it . Daddy wrote somethin' in there . '' Remember : To err is human '' So sweet . I find it really funny after reading what i've wrote months ago or even last year . I've penned down lotsa wonderful memories . I actually took 6 whole pages plus photos to write the experience of Emcee-ing last year in school with nadia , fadiana and shannon during the 20th anniversary speech day . Quarrels with parents , back-stabbings , michelle's pregnancy and slowly drifting away from my clique . Woah . Haha . I think i'm gonna show it to my kids in the future . Haha . Yeah , writing is cool .

Yeah . These people are my buddies in school . Liyan and Siying are in the same class as me and i really enjoy being with them . Learning together with them , sharing notes during examinations , calls to inform each other what hints the teacher have given for the prelims paper etc . Love 'em . =)
Sabreena and Nithya are part of our Rojak gang . That includes me , weiloong , rizzuan , haiziel , aizan and the both of 'em . We've been classmates for the first two years in this school and we are really very close even though we're in different classes now . Have gone throught a lot with them . Good times , bad times , we've all pulled it through and i'm glad that our friendship is standing strong although we don't meet up quite often . They have all been a great support and a wonderful companion to me . Whoo . I'm so glad to have such people around me . Including the North A girls . These people stand such a huge enormous place in my heart and each and every single one of them mean so so so so so much to me . Would never turn my backs against them if they ever need me . Love you people . Haha .
I've just got back my O level chinese result . I've got a B3 . I'm gonna re-take it cuz i really think i can do better than this . So yeah , pray for me that i'll score at least an A2 for the next time round okay ? Haha . thanks .
PE lesson yesterday was so so so fun la . I was paired up with Siying and we were practicising i-dunno-what-u-call-that . It has got somethin to do with balls la . I think it's mini tennis ? Don't know . I was quite tired cuz siying don't know how to serve and i ended up picking balls and she's over there laughing . =.= Miss Ng later came and told us that we need to serve side-ways and not from the bottom . I don't know how to describe but Miss ng told us the description of slapping one's butt . ''When you slap someone's butt , u slap it side-ways yah ? It goes the same for the ball. '' And so , i ended up slapping everyone's butt and i actually told 'em i was just practicing how to serve . LOL . Hilarious . Miss Ng joined in the fun too bt no , she didn't slap our butts . Haha . Was super high then .
Whoo ~ Im happy ! =)











Sunday, August 12, 2007
Whoo . My eyes are burning . I guess i can doze off anytime . Haha . Am kinda tired . But for whatever reason , i'm happy . =)

Went to Isle cafe arounf 11am yesterday to shepherd Tingting . I really enjoy shepherding my sheep . What a joy . They never fail to put a smile onto my face . Service was great . God spoked to me a lot . Yeah , it was very refreshing . It's indeed amazing , how God knows what u're troubled with even before you tell him and how His words can make any/every negative thoughts/emotions perish within seconds. Was quite troubled for the past few days . Thinkin' bout so much stuffs . I guess im worrying too much . I really need to do somethin' 'bout Northland . Am not gonna give up until God bless this land . Am not gonna leave without accomplishing this task God has given me . Perseverence . Patience . Maybe the time isn't right yet . Maybe God is tryin' to build on my character . Whatever the reason is , i shall not give up . This is what Daryl always used to say : '' It can be done . It will be done . It must be done! '' . Yes , indeed . It will . This will definitely come to pass .

AHHH . GIRLS , C'MON ! LET'S JIAYOU !
*If God is for us , who can be against us?

Friday, August 10, 2007





No words could ever express how much i love and appreciate them . Love you gals !
Here's a big wet kiss from me . Muacks !!! =)











Monday, August 06, 2007
Silly photo taken in Ps


Siying and i

Silly . LOL

Missy and ah ma . Like this pic . Dunno y too . Heh



















Sunday, August 05, 2007
I was and am still very inspired by yesterday's sermon by Pastor Christie. When things doesn't go well , i tend to worry this and worry that and instead of turning to God , i'd go ''why ? why did it all happen in such a way? why ?? " I guess im really a pessimist. I need to put away my negative thoughts aside . ''There must be a reason why God doesn't bless. Maybe the time is not right yet. Or maybe He's just testing you. Perhaps He wants you to learn to be patient and to persevere on.'' Tht was what Joyce told me the other day . I guess she's right. It was a powerful sermon and i could totally relate to whatever she was preaching about. Was troubling 'bout somthin' on Friday night and i kept thinkin' 'bout it. I found that i wasn't worthy. I found that i don't at all deserve God's grace and whatsmore , Love. But after yesterday's sermon and wht Joyce have told me, i guess i should really start learnin' to look at the postive side. It's pointless crying over spilt milk.


*smiles.

Ariella Joan Hoe

30'Oct'91
God is my love
Singing is my Passion

genesis_joan@hotmail.com

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