Jesus Loves You!

I know it's kinda late, but ohwell(:

Dearest Rebecca,

You've been a great blessing in my life.
I enjoy going to choir practs with you and crap in isle cafe after it(:
And like I said, I admire your desire to grow in the WOG
You always ask me questions about the word and I too, enjoy answering them
You've grown alot too(:
From the girl who spoke in an ant-like way to someone who dares to speak out boldly.
Come to think of it, your growth was quite evident.
Reading the posts that you've put up in NorthA's blog,
I can't help but feel so proud of you(:

When I prayed for you,
God dropped this word within me..

''Shine''
You're gonna have greater breakthroughs, I am certain.
You're gonna shineshineshineshineshine!

你是NorthA的骄傲(:

Does anyone has the book, ''The last lecture'' ?
Care to lend? (:

Even though I was revising for my stronger subject last night, I got so stressed out that I dropped my pen and began tearing. Took my phone and confided in some people. And this was what I've got:

SiYing- ‘You got my support. I believe you can make it through! You gotta think positively so as to succeed. Come on! Must have self-confidence!’

JoyceTan- ‘You can do it! I’ll support you all the way (: ’

XinRu- ‘别担心。当你觉得最俗手无策时，我不保证会在你身旁，但记得我在想着你，在为你着急. Don’t worry girl, I know God will make a way, this whole family is in this with you. Don’t stress yourself too much, or even think you’re inadequate. ‘Cuz God is the God of peace. He does things none can fathom. Jiayou, Joan, my dear friend. Jesus is waiting for you at the ending line. He holds the future, and now I guess he’s waiting for you to振作起来吧. He totally understands how you feel. I cant. He can help you in every single thing. I cant. He is there for you at the examination hall. I cant.’

With that, I rubbed away my tears, picked up my pen and continued revising.
For You, I will run.

时间啊，时间，

你能否在这儿多逗留一下，

好让我离开得甘愿一点。。

时间啊，时间，

你能否走得慢一点，

好让我能更珍惜身边的一切一切

时间啊，时间，

拜托，拜托。。

请别那么赶！):

A photo taken before Siying went for her O's Eng Oral.
Mine was a day before hers but she seemed even more nervous than I did.
She'd been working really hard as she'd not done that well during the Prelims.
Was so glad when I'd received a phonecall from her, telling me that it went pretty well.
A big thumbs up for you, dumbdumb! (:

Whoo, Silun made Brownies and Honey CornFlakes for us all too!!
Had been anticipating for it since last week(:
I shall attempt to make some for you girls soon.
And don't even talk about food poisoning, I warn you!
Wahahaha!

Each time I feel inadequate, You assured me..
Each time I fall, You picked me up..
Each time I wanted to give up, You pushed me beyond my limits and what I can do..
You believed in me..
You saw the light within me..
You saw how much more I could contribute to this Kingdom of Yours..

Things might be tedious right now..
But Daddy, I am not giving up..
Despaired? Yes, I am..
Discouraged? Definitely..
Afraid? Perhaps..
Giving up? NEVER!

My fingers are only inches away from reaching the finishing line..
I am not gonna turn my head back and give up just like that..
I would be a total fool if I were to do so..
You said in Isa45:7 that You're the one who created the light and made the darkness,
sent the good times and the bad times..
Therefore, I am gonna wait for Your timing..
'Cause I know my future is already set..
The present sufferings are nothing as compared to the future glory that's gonna be revealed in time to come..

I am gonna hold Your hands,
and walk beside You..
In your pace, not mine..
All I have to do is to follow You..
I have no idea where You're gonna lead me to
But as long as I am with You,
I know, for sure, that I am not going anywhere wrong..

Mid this year, Daddy & Mommy told me that we're gonna move by end of this year and most probably, it's gonna be in the East area. And guess what?

We really ARE moving! But not to the East.

The latest news is that we're gonna move over to Khatib's Condo! Not very sure of the name though. But what excites me the most is that besides my parents & nephew, I'd be living with Grandpa, Grandma & Uncle! I am elated! That way, I get to spend more time with my Grandparents(: Like how I'd used to when I was much much younger. So many people living under one roof. Conflicts and friction are inevitable, but Im pretty sure we'd be even more closely knitted(:
Everything's still rather here-and-there. However, Grandma said if nothing goes wrong, we're gonna move in by October(:

Yay!! God, you rock my socks man!

I remember how Michelle & I used to take out all the pots, pans, teacups, glasses, plates and play the game of ‘Restaurant’ .
I remember how Michelle & I would use the money that Daddy had left for dinner to buy sweets & tidbits.
I remember how Michelle & I would skip Chinese dance during Primary school & go play badminton instead.
I remember how Michelle & I used to pen down each & every ‘lil naughty things we’d done to each other and use it for blackmailing.
I remember how Michelle & I used to have the exact hair cut and people would mistake us for being twins despite the height difference.
I remember how Michelle & I were punished to kneel in front of the wall ‘cuz we fought despite the countless of warnings from Daddy.
I remember how Michelle & I used to stay over at Grandpa and Grandma’s place every weekend.
I remember how Michelle & I used to have pillow fights at night.
I remember how Michelle & I would follow Grandma to shop for CNY clothes/shoes & Michelle would cry at the end of the day ‘cuz I had my pretty shoes while she didn’t. Blame it on her large feet.
I remember how Michelle & I used to wait at the bus stop under our block for Mommy to return from work so that we could go to the library together.
I remember how Michelle & I held on to each other after waking up in the morning. I forgot why.
I remember how Michelle had piggy-backed me when I was crying alone in the living room.
I remember how I would stand in front of Michelle with arms stretched out whenever she gets caned for being naughty & how I’d be mad at her when she doesn’t do the same for me.

-Then I don’t know what happened. Everything changed.-

When I was younger, I’d think of being my sister’s bridesmaid when she gets married in future. You know, help her out with her gown and make up and stuff like that. I am still holding on to this dream.
I never told her I loved her. I thought there wasn’t a need. I took her for granted when I was younger & now that she’s not here, I long for her presence. Just give me her presence, God..
Nothing more than that.

I miss you, JieJie..
Very very badly..

Insolent teenagers yelling & screaming at their parents with vulgarities in public.
With such puerile sense of thinking , it’s no surprise that such blithering & inane ‘vocabularies’ are blurted out from their mouths. Whatever happened to basic mannerisms?

Observe the Youths nowadays and the big fat word, ‘E.M.P.T.Y’ is stamped on to the majority of their foreheads.
That group of youngsters puffing their lungs out outside Cineleisure.
That young couple getting intimate with each other in public with their uniforms on.
Yes, even that quiet girl with the thick glasses on, totally engrossed with her revisions.
They need Jesus.

I am not trying to sound conceited. I am a youth myself and am still learning and growing. But I seriously can’t fathom how ruined and corrupted my life would be without Him. I would most probably be this demanding and self-centered girl who thinks that the world revolves around none but her.

There’s this emptiness in all of us. Some fill it with pleasures of the world while some fill it with achievements which in return, gives them a sense of satisfaction. However, this ‘Hole’ is uniquely and specially made by someone. And true enough, it can only be filled by this someone who had created this ‘Hole’. The empty void inside can only be filled by Him. The empty chair within us can only be occupied by Him. No matter how hard as one tries to replace it with something else, it would still be a total waste of effort.

Goodness. I actually had 6hours straight of Mathematics today! (Alright, perhaps lesser than that 'cuz I actually took a long long long long while by just staring at the paper) With the help of my dearest cousin, of course. Zoey popped down to our place in the morning and Daddy was so happy about it. Finally there's someone to sit her little girl down and make her ''fellowship'' with Math. It was not as bad as I thought, though I got a wee bit restless (Okay, maybe alot) after several hours. Thereafter, got Zoey to help me change the blogskin. Simple & nice. I like.
Man, I really can't thank her enough for taking the time and effort in travelling all the way down from Pasir Ris to Yishun. She was extremely patient with me. It's a miracle she did not vomit blood. Thankyou, Deary(:

Make Sense, But Yet Not Quite

Melting: Solid--> Liquid
Boiling: Liquid--> Gas
Freezing: Liquid--> Solid

Condensation: Gas--> Liquid

Sublimation: Solid-->Gas

Joan: Hey, can you give me an example of Sublimation?

MingYang: Err... No idea

2Minutes later, he turned around with a sheepish look

MingYang: I know alr! Joss sticks lor! Joss sticks are solid mah. When you light them up, there's smoke mah! Hahaha!

*Faint

'INBOX'

‘Thanks. Keep me in prayer(:’
‘God, I pray for Joan that You’ll heal her of any discomfort she’s having. Lord, take every single sicknesses she has IN JESUS’ NAME. Heal her Lord. Ijn, Amen! :D’
‘Ok :D Thank you shepherd! :D Luv ya’
‘..Love you, sheep(:’
‘..Just want to tell you that we really love you a lot…’
‘..Don’t give up sista! Jiayou! God is the strength of your heart!’
‘..Know that this is the family that is gonna stick through storms. Let’s grow as a whole team(:’
‘..God take away her throat infection, her flu and prevent any other illness to start. God, boost her health, that she’ll not be held back by her discomfort, but rather, be so energized for you that she can give you her best to you! God, heal her, in Jesus’ name, Amen.’
‘Miss you(:’
‘Dearest! You feeling okay? Lol, take care alright. I miss you very much. Note the word,VERY!’
‘Get well soon! Will be praying for you(:’
‘Rest well!’
‘Joan! We’re all praying for you. Jiayou 4 O’s! … love ya!’

These are the few messages I have in my Inbox.
Somehow, unknowingly, I always look at them every once in a while.
I like to keep such messages in my phone, it never fails to bring a smile onto my face.
Even though I’m no longer sick, those get-well-soon messages & prayers still mean so much. Simply can’t thank God enough for the people He’d placed in my life who constantly shower me with love, care & concern.
Appreciate the little time taken by just a little move of the fingers on your phone :)

I think God had reminded a lot of us in NorthA to thank Him in all circumstances.
Every week seemed like a dreadful and tiring one,
often resulting myself in a deranged state of mind.
However, there is always something to thank God for, for sure.

I guess the best way is to always leave everything unto the One who controls.
There is only so much that we can do.
There is only so much that we can all contribute.
Man alone can never do up to 100%.
God has to intercede.
We, of course, should do our part by putting in our best.
Worrying is never the cure/solution to problems.

Pray.
Fundamental yet essential.
I saw this statement somewhere and I liked it so much that I penned it down into my Bible.
‘Life is fragile. Handle it with prayer.’
Praying has always been very natural to me ever since I accepted Christ.
However, I wanna pray with Substance. Not praying with an empty head.
That is babbling. Not praying.
I want to pray more, and make deliberate effort to pray for the people around me as well.
Every night I am praying for my Family’s Salvation, praying (not hoping) that they’d come and acknowledge the awesome God that I’m serving someday.
One day, they’re gonna have that love within them too.
I simply can’t fathom what it would be like.
However, I am very much certain that it’d come to pass(:

Went to the Doctor's today.

Throat Infection and Flu, he said.

I'm feeling much better after all the medicines already.

Thankyou all who sent me get-well-soon messages and prayers

Meant a lot(:

Beautiful(:

Tomorrow's a new week.

Soon, it'll be yet another week.

Enough of all the talking.

It's time to put it all into actions.

Procrastination kills.

Keep me in prayers(:

Went to Jog.
Had a cool shower.
Drank a cup of Orange Juice.

OhBoy, Now I feel so much more refreshed and energized!
The picture of an orange above is enough to make me drool already.
Come to think of it, I actually had Honey Red Tea 5 times for the whole of this week.

There’s so many random ‘’I-want-to’’s going on in my head right now.
I want to learn horse-riding.
I want to occupy myself with books and read all day long. (Man, I will try this someday)
I want to swim with Dolphins.
Haha, okay, I shall stop babbling.

This week’s another hushy-rushy-swish-swoshy one.
It was definitely a much tiring week.
Tests , Revisons and Homeworks. It’s driving me bonkers.
On a brighter note, I am elated as well(:
Grandpa, Grandma and Uncle came over early this week for a ‘’durian-session’’.
Mommy & Daddy were not working on that day too, so yeah,
we had a great time chatting/eating/crapping for the whole evening.
It had been a long time since we did that.

Thankyou all, for the encouragement and prayers too
I am coping well and am still clinging on, no worries(:
Oh, and I just realized something.
Know what’s the best way to tackle hardships coming your way?
A smile(:
Sometimes, things are not that complicated/tough as it seem from the surface(: