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Monday, July 30, 2007
Wanted to share more 'bout what happened during saturday on my previous post but i didn't had that time . Was explaining some stuffs 'bout Christianity to my primary school mate . I really enjoy sharing the goodness of Jesus . How i was transformed , how my life was no longer empty after i've made that decision to invite Jesus into my life . I never regretted .
I had average grades , i had fantastic friends , a bunch of fun and interesting people around me , everythin' went well in my life . But somehow , i felt empty . It was really scary . That emptiness . Somehow , i just couldnt fill that empty void in me . Im really glad that it's different now . Becuz i have God in me . =)

Well well . Service was great . But i was quite unhappy with myself . I had one convert and 3 other responsive contacts on friday while outreaching in Northland sec and i really thought they could come down for service the next day but none of 'em turned up . Ohwell . It's okay . I'm gonna work harder , man .

CL huddle was very very very interesting . Hahaha . I was teamed up with my beloved shepherd , Joyce , Jianhao and xueyong . It was hilarious man . We played number games and the forfeits were terrible . Xinru's one was the worse . HAHA .Beehoon plus fried rice plus grasspower . Eww . I got forfeited once and thank god , it was just bread and peach tea .
Reached home at 11pm and surprisingly , mummy didn't scold me . Ahh . Love her so much . =)
But then again , i dont think she knew that i came home late cuz she came home much later than me . LOL .

Ahh , 'N' Levels are coming soon . Time to hit the books . *Yawn

Sunday, July 29, 2007
Saturday's over just like that .

Saturday = Fun Fun Fun .

Sunday, July 22, 2007
If you get there before i do ,
don't give up on me .
I'll meet you when my chores are through .
i don't know how long i'll be .
But i'm not gonna let you down .
Darlin' , wait and see .
and between now and then till i see u again ,
i'll be lovin' you .
Love me ..
Finally got this song up on my blog .
Love it .
Thanks vivien , for the help . =)

Thursday, July 19, 2007
Woah . I miss blogging man . haha .

Hmm . Today's a good day . Yeah . I was extremely patient today in school , I dunno why too . That's so not joan . Shepherd-ed tingting today and i had a great time with her . Really like her laughter , so contagious . Really wanna thank God for her . Although Nara [ not sure of e spelling ] wasn't really responsive , Tingting still went the extra mile to call her , meet her up , write cards for her and evrthing . I'm really very proud of her . =) Love her so much . Ohh , and wanna thank God for another sheep of mine , Melissa . She's a really quiet person and don't really know how to interact with people whom she's not familiar with . But when i asked her to meet the 2 new converts from northland , She didn't complain or tell me that she can't do it . In fact , she was so excited to meet the girls up . Ahh . You girls have no idea how proud i am of you all . I thank God for you two . Keep growing ! =)

Have been reading a lot lately . Was quite book-less for the past weeks and i actually borrowed a book from Zinc , '' I kissed dating goodbye ''. And a few days later , i went to the library to borrow more books and I've just finished reading by '' Christy miller's collection book 4 '' by Robin Jones Gunn . It's really good . Both book , coincidentally , are talkin' about relationships . How we should see single-hood as a gift and not an obligation or somethin' lik that . I've learned pretty much . Have not finished reading so i shall share 'bout the Christy miller's book .

There's this part when Christy's friend , Tracy actually wrote a poem for this particular guy whom she had the hots for for years . And i think it's a really beautiful poem . So yea . Here goes .

Within my heart a garden grows
wild with violets and fragrant rose .
Bright daffodils line the narrow path
my footsteps silent as i pass .
Sweet tulips nod their heads in rest ;
i kneel in prayer to seek God's best .
For round my garden a fence stands firm
to guard my heart so i can learn .
Who should enter , and who should wait
on the other side of my locked gate .
I clasped the key around my neck
and wonder if the time is yet .
If i unlocked the gate today ,
would you come in ? Or run away ?

Isn't it sweet ? But i think at this point of time , why not let God hold that key ? To decide what should happen in ur heart's garden , Let God decide who should come in or send out anything' or anybody He wants . Let God open the gate only when the right man/woman comes along . Don't rush into relationships . Why hurry in finding that key ? I believe God has already placed that someone somehow somewhere in this earth specially for us . Let God take control of it.

Though i have not finished reading '' I kissed dating Goodbye'' , but there are also some points that i've learnt . I've come to realized that most people pursue romantic relationships just for the sake of romance and pursue intimacy for the sake of initimacy - two people gettin' close to each other physically , emotionally , spiritually , whatever , without the intention of makin' a long term commitment . Isn't it selfish ? Its stupid , i would say . If you're not ready to consider marriage , then i think it's really selfish to ask him or her to gratify you emotionally or physically .

God wants to give us a higher and grander view , and wants to deepen our understanding . Romance can thrill us to the core , it can be fun , it can be real sweet but it's only a teeny weeny part of true love . We've been playing in a sandbox when God actually wants to take us to the beach ! In that book , it says that it's God mercy and grace that should motivate us to live differently for the rest of our lives . We are unworthy sinners that God chose to rescue and forgive . This is love . True love . And bcuz we've experienced it - bcuz Jesus died for us - Let's be committed to a love life that's controlled by God . Bcuz of the love that He's showered upon us , let's make purity and blamless-ness our priority . Singlehood isn't that bad !

Sunday, July 08, 2007
Emcee Emcee Emcee ! Yay ! Yay ! Yay !
yeah ! Will be emcee-ing with nadia in school during racial harmony day . The reason why i'm so excited is bcuz its been such a long time since i emcee-ed and nad is my perfect partner cuz we've done this twice . LOL . Last year's 20th anniversary speech day was a superb and memorable one but this yr the teacher in charge only wants student from sec threes only . And the national day one was a disappointment . But i'm very sure this year's one will be different . =) Am soo lookin' forward to it .

Yesterday's service was great . God talked to me a lot . I was so stressed and worn out for this past few days , worrying this and worrying that , tryin' to find a solution to solve e problems etc . The reason why i'm pionnering Northland is bcuz im the chosen one . By God . God have chosen me and he believes that i can do it . And no , He won't gimme anythin' tht is too heavy i can't bear . And He definitely won't let me do the things that i cant do . I definitely do not want God's work for me to be left unaccomplished . He had chose me and I can do it .

After meeting , Joyce shared somethin' with us and it made wanting , celine and i teared . I have never seen Celine cry before . I love each and everyone of you so dearly . This family is filled with LOVE , FUN and ENTHUSIASM in serving God . We know each other's strengths and weaknesses .We've been through good times and really tough times together . I am really really very happy that im part of this team . I will never ever leave this family . =)
Over my dead body . HAHAHAHA .

Friday, July 06, 2007
Yay ! Today's Friday ! End of school ! For this week , that is . Ha . I am so hapy . These few days have been a tiring and stressful one for me . Yeah . And i wasn't really in a good mood , especially on Wednesday . A lot of things to worry about . I haven't hand in my Dnt project and i've been stayin' back in school every single day till 5 , 6 plus , rushing to geddit done and i haven't got extra time to go evax . =( And during chemistry lesson , Mr Ng asked me three SAME questions after every 10 mins rather than asking those classmates who were sleeping just right under his nose . And And And .. !! Northland is not growing !! Yeah . And right after school i just went straight to the washroom and cry . I thought i was not doing well in everythin that im doing and i seemed to be disappointing the people around me who are pinning high hopes on me . I turned to God . I remembered what i asked him that day : '' God , i thought you said you won't give me anythin too heavy that i can't bear ? '' . Yeah . But i felt much much better after pouring all these out to Joyce yesterday during shepherding . And i was really refreshed after that . I was so 'into' my problems that i've forgotten what i have around me . People who loves and cares for me . People who are willing to lend a listenin' ear . =) Thank you , Joyce Tan . haha .
Oh also wanna thank weymun and chengan for helpin' me so much in that Dnt project . Really appreciate it .

''Of course i can handle this . I'm Joan the wonderwoman , okay . '' =)

I am gonna be the history-maker in Northland
I am gonna be the one establishing a community in Northland .
All with the help of God , I CAN !!!

Ariella Joan Hoe

30'Oct'91
God is my love
Singing is my Passion

genesis_joan@hotmail.com

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