JESUS - How can i not start thanking you first? You held my hand and guided me through. Thankyou for providing me with so much. Thankyou for pouring down countless of blessings. Thankyou for working miraculous wonders and signs in my life. Thankyou for loving me. I know you'd use me even more next year. Iloveyou, Father(:

JOYCE TAN - Dearest Shepherd, I seriously don't know what more should i say. Whatever that i wanted to say, I've already told you. But I'm just gonna repeat it all again. You really play a great big role, in my spiritual walk with God. You're always patient with me. You never gave up on me, though im not so sure if you've ever felt like doing so. Hahaha! I'm really grateful to you. For investing your time, effort and energy on me. You could have chose not to do it. You could have walked away. You could have given up on me. But you still stayed on, continued to support and teach me. Thank you for tolerating my nonsense. Thank you for being my mentor. Thank you for being my teacher. Thank you for being my ''Spiritual Mother''. Thank you for being my friend. Thank you for being part of my life. Thank you for being you. Iloveyou(:

NORTH - I love this family of God. Sharlene's right. This is not purely a family of God but also an army of God. This is where i belong. Thankyou to all brothers and sisters. Let's continue to work even harder for this kingdom! Jiayou everyone!

CELINE HO - Hey Sheepmate, my ho-ho-ho partner. Thank you for being there when the other sisters are singing the horlick & santa song. Makes me less lonely. Hahaha! Alright, jokes aside. Thank you for always making a fool out of yourself (Haha!)to lift the atmosphere in Caregroups and meetings. It would be so dead without you. You're one very sporting girl who's always so willing in doing forfeits. Thank you for your ''Jiayous'' when giving confirmation.Thank you for being in the team of Ultramen. Iloveyou(:

VIVIEN LIM - ''Lim zui ho!'' Hahaha. Thank you for giving the ''Ah ma'' nickname though it doesnt really suit me cuz im still so young at heart and you're only 2 years younger than me. Haha! Nah, thank you for always Joannnnnnnn-ing me when im feeling down and all. I've told you countless of times. I admire your optimism and enthusiasm in everything that you do and your kingdom-mindedness. You never let anything sway/pull you away from doing the things that you want to do and also in your walk with God. Love your Steady-pom-pee-pee attitude.
Thank you for being in the team of Ultramen. Iloveyou(:


TAY XINRU- Teh Tarek! Hahaha. ''Kiddo-who-looks-old''. Heh. Thank you for your listening ear. You're always there to listen listen & listen. Listening to what God had spoken to me when im so excited to share with everybody, listening to my complaints etc. You're someone whom i can relate well to. Jogina and you are really my crapping partners. ''GoodGoodGood'' , ''PaperPaperPaper'', ''Shave''. Lol , you know what i mean (: Thank you for being in the team of Ultramen. Iloveyou(:


JOGINA MAK - Hey tele-buddy! I thank Joyce for the tele-buddy praying system bcuz that was what pulled us together. Thank you for all your prayers and letters (I'd like to receive more. Joan loves words(: Heh) Thank you for always trying to understanding me though i know it wasnt much of an easy job. Thank you for your enocuragements. Those words really lift me up. Thank you for your trust and commitment in this genuine friendship. Thank you for being part of the Ultramen team. Iloveyou(:


VALERIE CHUA - The girl with the silly smile. Haha. Am really glad to know you. You always face everything with a smile. Love that attitude. I've told you before, to me, you're one who looks soft on the outside but really tough in the inside. You're strong and firm in your beliefs and never had any second thoughts. Your single-mindedness really amazes me. Thank you for being part of the Ultramen team. Iloveyou(:


PEOK WANTING - Hey missy! Where's your first aid box? Heh. Thank you for being our missy so we know who to turn to when we need plasters, tissues, wet tissues etc. You really meet our needs. Hahahaha! Thankyou for bring part of the Ultramen team. Iloveyou(:


MELISSA TAN/ TOH LIYAN- Hey sheep(s), thankyou for standing strong despite of all of the obstacles and difficulties that you girls had faced in your Spiritual walk with God. Sorry if i were too harsh to you girls at times. Im sure you know where i was coming from and that i doesn't mean it. Thankyou for wanting to grow , mature & also desiring to do great big things for God. God will use you when you desire and believe. Have Faith! You know that i'm in this together with you all and that i'm always here for you girls. No one's gonna back out of this alright? Jiayou! Iloveyou(:

TAN WEILOONG - Hey Buddy, thankyou for bringing me to Hope on 02/12/06. That invitation really changed my life upside down, downside up. Haha. It's been a year. Timeflies. The Bible was a gift from you to me when i first came. Don't even expect me to return it back to you 'cuz im not leaving God. It's been four years already! Been through a lot eh ? Let's continue to build strong , biblical friendship and correct one another , alright?


CHRISTINE ONG- Thankyou for answering all my questions and doubts when i first came to Hope. I did not receive Christ immediately but you still sat me down and talked to me. If not for you, I wouldnt be where i am now. I'm forever grateful to you. Iloveyou(:


ANATTA PRAJNA GAJA- Hey Dearest, i truly miss you. I'm really very very happy that we had that conversation on msn earlier this month. You're my bestfriend and will always be. We've been through so much, there's no way am i gonna back out from this friendship. Four years. It's been four years. Please know that no matter what, no matter where you are, no matter what happened, if you ever ever ever need me, just call me. No matter how busy i am, i'd still be there for you, i promise. You mean the whole world to me. Iloveyou(:


TAN SIYING - Hey siaosiao girl!! Hahaha we've known each other for what, 10 years! Gosh. For once, i'm actually feeling old. We didnt start off very well at the beginning. We started to know each other even well this year. I have loads of fun together with you in class. Thankyou for your notes and coaching in Math. I'm so glad that i'm gonna be in the same class with you AGAIN next year! Let's not play so much and chiong in our studies alright? Please smack my butt if i'm lazy. Heehee. Iloveyou(:


NURUL NADIA - Lessie! I really miss you! Last year was a really fruitful one for me. I had soo many emcee-ing programmes and performances together with you in school and i had a whole lot of fun. I really seriously whatever-ly enjoyed myself! You were there not only in these events but you were there also when i was not feeling that well 'bout some issues in class. I didnt forget those hugs. I didnt forget the words that you've told me. ''The joan i know isnt like this! Joan is a wonderwoman!'' You might have forgotten but i didnt. I appreciate all that you've done to/for me. Iloveyou(:


BOO GUOHAN/CHOO ZHANGYAN- Hey guys! I still remember you all okay! Thank you for making my first two years in YSS such a memorable one. I had LOADS of fun with you all. I'd go nuts each and every time im with you all. Thankyou for coaching me in badminton and being such wonderful friends. Love talking to you guys. Iloveyou(:

4N5 GANG (2006)- Whoo-hoo! I'm excited for next year! It would be another year of greater bondings. You guys made school so much more fun and cool. School's never boring becuz of you all. Iloveyou peeps(:

MR TAN CHUNKIAT - My sec2 teacher. I know you wouldnt be able to see this but i just want to thank you. Thankyou for entrusting me with uncountable roles and responsibilites then. You made me have a even greater interest in English. And yes, i still remember your ''Joan, don't give up. It's never too late.'' 2n3loves you(:

MISS NG PECHIN- Again, i dont think you would be able to see his but Thank you for being so patient with the whole class. You made physics not that boring. Your jokes are hilarious. I can really see the care and love you have for your students. Thankyou for being our form teacher for two years and tolerationg our nonsense for 2years. Heh. Continue to be an influential teacher and touch the hearts of others. Though you wouldnt be able to be with us for another year next year, pleas do know that you'd be missed. 4n5loves you(:

BYEBYE 2007 , ALOHA 2008!

I know it's still kinda early to post 'bout this but Ohwell.

Yay! New year's coming! I really hope i can do something different on the last day of 2007. Maybe go countdown or something. I know that's the norm but seriously, i've not done that before. Im always staying home, munching some chips and watching some countdown shows and then go to bed.

Year2007:
A year that is wayyyyyyyyyyyyy better than 2006. Year2006 was a horrendous one.
Ohwell , I shan't elaborate. This year has also been like a RollerCoaster ride. It's full of Ups and Downs (Lefts & Rights) . Heh. Been through great times and really bad ones. But through it all , Joan is still standing tall (: It's hard to say what and how i've overcame them all but it's all thanks to the people around me. Always encouraging me , dragging and pushing me along together with them and all. I've really learnt a lot a lot a lot just within this year. Am really grateful to the people who had helped me along the way, corrected me etc. There's too many to mention, really. Thank God for you people.

Year2008:
I'm going back to school! Sec 5!! Uniforms Uniforms Uniforms!!
I'm not sure 'bout the road ahead. It would most probably be a rocky one, filled with obstacles. Life is never a smooth-sailing one. But seriously, I'm already ready and prepared for it. Im just waiting for the GreenLight. Im not afraid. Cuz i know God will keep watch over me and He will place people into my life to keep me going on as well. Oh boy, I'm excited 'bout it already.

2008, HERE I COME ~ !!!

Ultramen ,

Joan promise to be there for you girls when you ever need someone to cry with or laugh with.
Joan promise to never turn her back against you girls.
Joan promise to support you in everything that you do in advancing the Kingdom of God.

Really.. What more can i say?
I really love you girls (:

We've been through many ups and downs .
When i got knocked down and fell, you girls did not kick me aside or say ''I told you so.''
You girls picked me up , gave a pat on my shoulder and pushed me forward.
We've overcame many challenges and obstacles.
Yes, it wasn't easy.
We felt like giving up.
But we still held on together.
My spiritual walk with God would never be complete without you girls.

Really..really.. what more can i say?

Iloveyou, dearest shepherd, JoyceTan.
Iloveyou, Jogina.
Iloveyou, Valerie.
Iloveyou, Wanting
Iloveyou, Xinru
Iloveyou, Vivien
Iloveyou, Celine



Author William Allen Ward remarked : '' A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities.''

How true..

I hope i can say
''Done. Enough is enough. I'm done and over with it. This is all i can take.''
I hope i can just slam the table , and just walk out.

But i'm not gonna let satan win this.
Satan , GET LOST.
If you think you can defeat me ,
then i guess you're the biggest fool in this entire planet.
Sorry ,
if you want to see me fall flat on the ground ,
then you'd better sit on your thinkin' couch , think hard and plan hard.
Though i don't think it would make much difference.
Cuz it's Joan you're dealing with.
It's God's child you're dealing with.

Call me a ''Jesus Freak''
I dont care.
Cuz im proud of it.

I've just been away for 'bout 2 days but it feels as though i've been away for weeks. Heh.

Went to the rock auditorium for service yesterday.
I had a good time walking to and fro fetching people and all.
Haha , partly because i like walking luh.

CHRISTMAS PARTY AT SENTOSA!
I think many girls regretted wearing skirts and heels yesterday.
Hahaha!
I brought extra clothes but i actually forgot to bring my slippers!
Thus, many of us went bare-footed.
Kinda comfortable though.
It was like a ''get-rugged'' day.
I was famished and my eyes were sparkling when i saw the food and drinks
but i guess i was wayyy too hungry, i ended up eating very little.
The singers were great.
The masquerades were unique and nice.
The ''couples'' were gorgeous.
I've got sabo-ed by many many people including my sheep(s)
Ohwell
I had fun (:

Later went to stay overnight at Shepherd's house (JoyceTan) together with the Ultramen team (Sheepmates)
Vivien couldnt make it ):
Kinda sad.
We had a grrrreat time.
We went for supper at around 3plus ,
went back to Joyce's place and had some sharing again

When we woke up this morning,
we continued to lay in bed for a 'lil while more,
crapping and all.
Joyce prepared breakfast for us too!
It was superb
She even used one word to describe each and every one of us.

Valerie- Attractive (Evry non-believer would go to her )
Celine- Loving (Her unconditional love for her sheep even though they're still sooo young)
Jogina- Outstanding (Her outstanding Voice and leadership skills)
Xinru- Amazing (Young at age. Mature , strong and firm in Christ)
Vivien- unique ( Young at age, but doing great things for God too)
Wanting- CMI (Cannot make it by herself but can make it with God)
Joan- Knowledgeable (Ohh well. Self-praise is no praise. Ahem)

Vivien was not there and wanting left early for tuition but the rest of us too, used a word to describe our Beloved shepherd.

Valerie- Impactful
Celine- Obedience
Jogina- Motherly
Xinru- Sporting
Joan- I gave three. Heh. Courageous, influential and a believer.

Courageous because she always let her sheep , or rather the ultramen team, to the deep waters. To me,
she's not afraid of us screwing things up. She'd be there to motivate , encourage, monitor and guide.
Influential because i'm a really stubborn person and it takes alot for one to really change my perspective, the way i view things and to ''insert'' values into my brain. But she'd done it. One thing that i admire about her is that she makes sure she had done that one thing first before expecting us to reach that standard and to do the same thing.
I say she's a believer because she believes in her people.
She believed in me, that's why i started to believe in myself (:

Just came back not long ago from her place.
Received many sweet smses from the ultramen

Joyce- '' Ulramen, i really love you all to the core of my heart! You all are my dream team, my answered prayer and my miracle from God(: Let's complete CG08!''

Joan- ''It doesn't matter how many ''I love you''s i've said. It doesn't matter how much time we've spent. It doesn't matter how much tears we've shed. It doesn't matter how much laughters we've had. What matters is,
in my heart, there are 8 places engraved with the names of the ultramen. This is a Family. MY family(: ''

Celine- '' Hey girls , i really have lots of fun with you all although it's only for one day. Love you all alot.
Rest well and see you tomorrow (: ''

Xinru- ''Ultramen, 8 letters, 8 lives. Not even one of you can be missed. We are a dream team, a miracle grp. God sent people. Each of you matter, in the deepest depth of my heart.''

Jogina- ''I really thank God for you all in my life. You're the ones whom we're always togetha. Always supporting each other. Simply-I love this family of God.''

Valerie- ''Ultramen really live up to its name. Ultra loving, Ultra fun, ultra bonded. You guys owned an ultra space in my heart too (: ''

Wanting- ''Really had a great time with you guys and this would definitely not be the last time. Love ya lots sincerely(:''

BabyNephew's 9 months old today(:

BabyNephew's a miracle baby.
He's the greatest miracle God had performed in my life.
I've told many people this story & i feel like sharing it here

Months before my Sis gave birth to BabyNephew, my sis went for this scanning and the doctor later told my sis and my parents that there's this waterbag in the Baby's head. If things go wrong, the Baby might end up being retarded or something. However, the doctor could not do anything until the arrival of the Baby.

I was very very worried and frustrated at the same time. I told some people about it and they prayed for me.
I prayed for months.
I prayed everynight with tears.
Praying for BabyNephew's health.

On the 21st of March,
BabyNephew ''Popped out''
The first thing my parents asked was the ''water bag'' in BabyNephew's head.
Guess what the doctor said?
The doctor said they cant scan any ''water bag'' in the Baby's head.
Apparently, the ''water bag'' vanished.

I was amazed.
I was lost for words.

''Miracle Baby''
That was what Daryl said when i broke the news to him and the others.
Indeed , Miracle Baby (:

YAY!!!!!!!!!

Firstly wanna thank those who took the time and effort to pray for me for my N level's results.
Thank you for tellin' me to believe in myself and let God decide.
Joan made it (:
I've got a 6 (Initially was a 9. Gave me a shock)
I did badly for Math though.
Jogina, Weiloong and Angeline came all the way down to gimme support.
Thanks guys(:

Went to celebrate with some people after that.
Had a great time
Whoo hoo~
Im happy today

Year2008,
watch out!
Joan's coming your way !!

Was online chatting with Cousin , telling her how worried i am as i'm getting my results back on Tuesday.

Nutcase says:
wait for the day to come then let Father decide
Nutcase says:
everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses wad
Nutcase says:
juz bcoz you're not academically inclined doesn't make you any less inferior

jOan says:
everyone has high hopes on me
jOan says:
they're like
jOan says:
''Aiyah , you can one la, you can one la''
jOan says:
'' dont have to worry ''
jOan says:
but
jOan says:
what if


Nutcase says:
why think so many what ifs?
Nutcase says:
i mean like
Nutcase says:
if u wanna use what if then u got lots of things to worry already
Nutcase says:
how abt what if i die tml?

Nutcase says:
what if this person is gone tml?
Nutcasecut says:
wad if i've contracted a terminal disease?
Nutcase says:
wad if i run out of money?
Nutcase says:
wad if the sky is gonna fall?
Nutcase says:
wad if the world is gonna end the next day?
Nutcase says:
these are things out of ur control already
Nutcase says:
so wad's the point of thinking wad if

Nutcase says:
juz pray and hope for the best
Nutcase says:
gave in ur best, nth to worry, nth to regret
Nutcase says:
only hope for the best

jOan says:
you think i can make it ?
Nutcase says:
can(:

Nutcase says:
1million can believe in u, but u urself dun believe in urself
Nutcase says:
no point having 1 million ppl beliving in u



She's one cousin who's always there to comfort and consel me in many different periods of my life. Really appreciate it, Zoey (:
Perhaps sometimes one just need someone to tell them
''You can do it, I believe in you''
I'm not worried anymore.

Matt6:34 - ''Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.''

Father, I commit everythin' unto your hands.
I trust in you.
You decide.

Before going out to meet the girls for service this morning,
One old man and woman knocked on the door.
The woman then began to ask me if i'm a student etc.
When i first saw her, somehow i had a feeling that she's a Christian.
I was wearing this ear ring of a cross and she asked me if i'm wearing it just for fun or if i'm really a Christian.
Then i was like ''Waa, she's a Christian, for sure''
When i told her i'm a Christian ,
she began to ask if i'd ever regretted making this decision and how it had changed my life.
She asked me a lot of Questions.
''Why is it that we are asked to share the Gospel?''
''Why do we call it ''The Good News'' ? ''
She said my answers were good (:
Heh heh
I love to see people whom i don't know, serving God together with me, sharing the Good News to others etc.
It just warms my heart.
At least, I know that i'm not alone in this

Praise God!
We had 3 converts today and two are from my pioneering school!
Whoo-hoo!
God is indeed moving in this community!
Let's Jiayou , girls!

Thank God for these people who played a part in the Anniversary Skit (:

Joyce
Jogina
Xinru
Sab
Xueyong
Nicholas
Jianhao
Donal
Elton
Joshua
Yuenhan

Thank you Thank you Thank you！
大家辛苦了~ ！
Really appreciate your time, effort, energy and sweat. Hahaha.
Sorry if i'd ever flare up at you guys, i didn't mean it.
Really enjoyed the whole process with you people.
The puzzle pieces were awesome!
You people were really sporting 'bout it, especially the cheer part.
LOL



BabyNephew has got 2 blueblacks on his forehead.
So heart pain.
Haha

Yay I'm back from Camp after 4days & 3nights in Singapore Sports School
I've achieved all my camp objectives on the very first day (:
One of my camp objectives was to receive a conviction from God. One that would not just come and go but would really convict me throughout my entire walk with God.

It was only the first night but yet i experienced God soo soo much.
I expected a conviction that would have got to do with my group/community.
But i was wrong.
In fact , God gave me this 4 lettered word ''L-O-V-E''.
His love for men and our love for Him.
It's quite fundamental but yet many neglect it.
He reminded me that there's no point in doing anything if you're not doing for/with God or doesn't at all have that mindset of wanting to extend God's Kingdon.
''LOVE'' can motivate us to do great things for God.
It encourages us and gives us a sense of hope and purpose.
On the second day, He spoke to me 'bout the same thing as well.
The majority of the Christians know that God loves us and would never leave nor forsake us.
However, i really sensed it that day.
I actually heard this voice saying '' I love you, my child''
I teared immediately.
That voice was soo clear and full of warmth.
Unlike others, God loves us just for the way we are but not how smart, skillful,goodlooking or even dumb and foolish we are.
His love for us is limit-less and has no boundaries.



The third day & night was a memorable one.
That was the date Jogina and i first knew each other one year ago.
But that's not the point.
The Ultramen (Joyce, Vivien, Celine, Xinru, Jogina, Wanting, Valerie and myself) were in Joyce's room sharing each other's promises to this Ultramen team.
I was the first to tear la but the always -die-die-also-cannot-cry Joyce actually teared too!!
Wahahaha~ mission accmplished!
She'd always control her tears but she just couldnt control it then.
Joyce then suggested us to hold our hands and pray and even before she prayed, she said some things that made us all cry again and believe me, we cried really really hard and it was super unglam.
The sniffing and all.
We then let go of each other's hands and covered our face, wipe away our tears etc and Joyce said
''It's okay! let's hold our hands together! Let the tears flow!''
Come to think of it, it's quite funny luh
Everybody cried like mad, including the always-quite-tough celine, xinru and viven
then it started to rain (yes, i know. It's very dramatic)
At the end of the day, all the Ultramen walked around with super swollen eyebags with our eyes half closed
Haha~ Really love you girls



Oooh and i had a great time taking care of the HongKong sisters (Esther and MeiMei) together with Celine too.
My canto's quite broken la but i have no idea why they say it's good when my family (granparent's side) kept laughing whenever i speak canto.
They are really very sweet people.
On the last day of Camp, they wrote to Celine and I, thanking us and all.
It just touches my heart to know that people all around the world are serving God together with us.
We ain't alone (:

You don't have to thank someone on a specific occasion.
You don't have to say nice things to someone only when you need a favour from them.
You don't have to affirm someone only when it's their birthday.

Therefore, I would want to thank the UltraMen team in NorthA (:

JOYCE TAN-
My dearest Shepherd. What more can i say? You know me inside out. You were there right from the beginning. You grew me from Nothing to Something. You believed in me and thus, i started believing in myself. You saw the best in me and stretched my potential to the very max. You were there when i needed you. You were there when i did all my ''Firsts''. I've broke down in front of you many times. You were firm and soft at the correct times. You've given me countless of opportunities and you weren't afraid that i'll screw it all up. Thank you for lettin' me out to the deep waters. Thank you for your understanding and tolerance of my nonsense at times. Ha. Do you know that your every pad on my back actually mean everything to me? Do you know that you've changed my perspective in/on life? I LOVE YOU (:

JOGINA-
My pillar of strength. I know i expect much, okay, a lot in friendships and i've somehow neglected your feelings along the way sometimes and for that, i'm really sorry. 3 more days and it's our one year-anniversary. Hahaha , sounds like we're in a relationship or something. We had our super-high and super-low moments and i cherish it all. I remember how we slapped each other's arms and laughed like mad in the office while working and how we sat at YishunMrt, missing so many trains just for the sake of talking and accompanying each other. You know how much you mean to me. I LOVE YOU (:

XINRU-
Seriously, till now i still can't believe you're sec one luh! Putting aside the fact that you look old (oops) i mean mature, you're actually someone whom i can totally relate to. I really enjoy talking to you 'cuz i've realized that we actually think quite alike. Great minds think alike. Heh. You're young but yet you can do sooo sooo much! To me, you're a really strong leader or even a believer in Christ who not only dare to dream big for God, but also do big things for God. Love that attitude, girl! I LOVE YOU (:

VIVIEN-
I enjoy the days when i was pioneering Yishun Secondary together with you. I was new to pioneering but you were patient to me and perhaps you didn't know, but i actually learned a lot from you. Your words and actions sometimes do inspire me. Please eat more rice! Hahaha, but that's not the point. Continue to have that fire burning in you! I LOVE YOU (:

CELINE-
Cockroach! Hahaha, you're always the clown in this group. The funniest thing is that, you always make others laugh without the intention of doing it. Thank you for your blur-ness that would always lift the atmosphere in both caregroup and ultramen meet. I LOVE YOU (:

WANTING-
North's Traning's over! Hahaha i can hear you go ''phew!''. I enjoy the process of preparing the teachings together with Joyce and you. Thank you for squeezing my hand and encouraging me.
Thank you for all your revison notes during N' levels. I LOVE YOU (:

VALERIE-
My first impression on you was that you're really quiet and introverted. But i guess , ahem .. Hahaha. Kiddin'! Have never seen you flare up before, perhaps i should agitate you more! Hahaha. You're someone who's soft in the outside but really strong in the inside. Someone who's vey genuine and sincere and doesn't take things for granted. I LOVE YOU (:

You girls really complete my life, you know that? Let's grow together and learn even more.
If any time you girls need someone to laugh or cry with, remember, i'm just 8 digits away (:
Love the Family of NorthA
Here's a big wet kiss from me to you
Muacckksss ~

*Burp

LOL

有人说，
‘笑也是一天，
哭也是一天，
那不如笑着过一天？’

我很想用这种方法来面对人生，
用这种态度与观念来面对一切不如意的事。

人，毕竟是人。
谈何容易。

我会等。
我会学。

我会勇敢的，
面带笑容的面对一切。
有一天，
总会有一天，
我会攀上最高峰。

Ahh~ How i miss her.

John C.Maxwell stated in His book , ''Winning with people'' ,
that a true friend ..
is someone who sees you at your worst but never forgets your best.
is someone who thinks you're a little bit more wonderful than you really are.
is someone you can talk with for hours or be with in complete silence.
is as happy for your success as you are.

How true.. Anatta's just one ordinary girl. But the friendship i have with her is extraordinary. There's one time , she got teased by her classmates and couldn't stop crying after school as we were walking towards KFC for lunch. As soon as we'd reached KFC , she went to the washroom and washed up and i was standing by the doorside , looking at her. I was really frustrated 'cuz i seriously didn't know what to say to her. Then i did something i thought i could only do at that point of time. I went up to her and gave her a tight hug . She didn't stop crying. She cried even harder. In fact , i was crying myself too! So yea, you can picture it , two girls hugging each other in that teenyweeny washroom , crying so loudly. I remembered there was this guy who wanted to wash his hands but he saw the both of us and turned away. Come to think of it, it's quite funny luh . Ha ..

There was also once when she went back to indonesia for a week during school period. I didn't want her to feel left out when she came back so i wrote to her every night like a diary , telling her what had happened in school etc. And when she came back , i gave her a really really thick envelope. Yeah , all the letters that ive wrote within that week was in the envelope and she teared while reading. She still have it with her:)

I've experienced many ups and downs with her. We've had our really beautiful moments and really really bad ones. We'd laughed really loud and did super silly things together. We've also shouted at each other's face but ended up hugging each other , sobbing really hard. She's one friend who occupy a huge great place in my heart . True , there were times when she wasn't there when i needed her. But she's one genuine girl who doesn't take things for granted.

When you develop a deep frienship with someone , value it , because real friends are like gems . They are precious and rare :)

Whoooo ~ It's somebody's birthday today

Happy Birthday Melissa ~!!

She'd been a very obedient sheep.
It's been 8 months already , but it seemed like i've known her for years.
It's really a joy to see her growing and maturing in her walk with Christ.
She'd stepped out of her comfort zone to do stuffs that she never thought she could.
Jiayou , girl :)
We're gonna establish a community there in Northland.
Im in this with you
Love ya:)

Happy spiritual Birthday to myself and my dearest shepherd, JOYCETAN:)
Yea, on this very day last year, i went to HOPE. I can still remember vividly what happened that day. When i was sitting down, all the sisters just crowded over me , asking for my name, school etc and stuffed my bag with loads of beautiful cards , chocolates and sweets. I was really overwhelmed then. Vivien was like ''HEY! YA FROM YISHUN SEC? SAME HERE! IVE NEVER SEEN YOU BEFORE! '' then she gave me this really wide smile. HAHAHA. I still remember who were the singers on stage and who were the ones who shared their testimony. I didn't convert straight away during altar call though i was touched and felt the presence of God. Christine shared the bridge diagram and answered my every questions, which i had a lot,and was very nice to me. Woah.. time really flies man. It's been one year already. This year's quite a fruitful one for me, actually. I had a lot of my firsts .

First time being a shepherd
First time pioneering a school
First time organizing Mcg
First time writing scripts
First time leading worship :)
First time learning guitar

There are still more, im sure. I just can't list them all out at once for the time being. Heh. I'm really grateful and thankful for all that God had gave and poured down. Am even grateful for the people that He'd placed in my life. People who sees the potential in me, people who mazimized my strength, people whom i can really relate and confide in. My, He'd really gave me a lot. What more can i complain?



I've finally changed my blogskin. This looks so much more cheery and bright:)