Today is a good day . heh . sound like a primary school kid writing a journal . everythin went well today and as usual , i had great fun in class . =) and guess wad people ? i passed my chemistry and physics test ! got back my physics test days ago , had a lil' confidence that i'll pass cuz i realli did study for that . and when i got back my test paper , im like floating in the air laaa. i got higher than what i had expected . 18 / 25 . =) mr ng gave us our chemistry test today and i was hell nervus before that cuz i didn't study THAT much compared to physics . i thought i would fail . but when i got back my paper , i went "aaahhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!! " i passed !!! 15/25. jus managed to scrape through la . but at least i passed . scored really bad last term . kelly and the gals were really happy for me =) smsed daddy and mommy right after school . they were so happy =) i was so happy , i almost teared la . yea i know how dramatic it sounds but this is the fact ! im elated ! i guess i really have to thank God for all these . ^^

went to sakura for lunch after school with the gals . was raining though . ate chicken fried rice . yummy yummy ..

vivien , liyan , yanrong , everylyn , daryl , jianhao , william and cyril came to our place yesterday . played uno , cluedo and stuff lik that . actually im kinda surprised that daddy actually allow me to bring my friends to our place . haha . had so much fun although we had to lower down our volume since grandpa's resting at home .

u know , everythin's lik so perfect for me right now . i cant find anything to complain about and i definitely cant thank God enough for all these .

I AM SO SATISFIED .

An uh-oh day .

everyone were supposed to bring their thermometers today .
i brought mine !
but guess wat ?
it was not working !
so miss ng called me to line up together with this bunch of ppl who did not bring their thermometers .
mdm azizah took our temperature and we have to pay 0.20cents for that !
OH WELL
at least ive made it a point to bring it .

miss latika approached me this morning .
she asked me if i wanted to join the SYF indian dance .
i was stunned when i heard it .
but she told me its a ''multi-racial indian dance'' kinda thing .
i thought it was kinda challenging .
a chinese gal dancing an indian dance .
how cool .
so i agreed .

saw samuel in the canteen after school around 1 plus .
and i was like "SAM SAM!!"
and he went ''JOAN JOAN !!"
lols . that was hilarious .
we did that since last yr and it always bring a smile to my face .

okie . went to the hall at 2.30 .
saw lotsa indian dancers .
one malay gal .
no chinese .
i was the only one .
hagila approached me .
everyone were trying to be friendly and wanting to make me feel comfortable .
i was the only chinese after all .
when hagila asked this particular gal to show me the moves ,
this gal frowned and gave her a look like ''HER ??!!! are u sure?"
another gal showed me the moves .
then that teacher who taught us the moves asked me to go up on stage and jus follow wad they're doin .
but i did not know the moves at all !
i dun even know where to stand , for pete's sake !
and i ended up lookin lik a clown running round the stage .
so embarassing .
but i definitely appreciate those gals who were so patient to teach me .
gee ..
i guess im gonna back out of this .
i cant cope .
indian traditonal dance is just not me .
when was the last time ive danced traditional dances ?
its like , 5 years ago ?
and its chinese traditonal dance . and obviously , its much more easier for me compared to indian dance .
boo .
how challenging huh ?

my back hurts laaaa .........
that freakin old injury ..

booboobaa googoogaagaa

went home-visiting with NWA y'dae .
oh boy , it was soo much fun !
chinese new yr concert in school was superb too .
the gals and i went crazy .
cheering . laughin . screamin . waving our hands .

school today was good too .

everythin's just so perfect now . =)


haha .. a very random post ..

finally !
a day out with anatta !
haha . invited her for service ytd .
was supposed to meet her around 11.45-12.00pm
but figured out that she'd be late , as usual .
so instead , i told her to meet me around 11.00pm at yishn mrt station .
and i was right !
she was half an hour late .
smarty-joan ! haha .
i know her tooo well .

she was sitting beside me during service .
pastor shirley melinda was talkin about friendships n stuff lik that .
she asked about the gifts that our friends had given us .
and those gifts need not be , u noe , real "gifts"
and i thought alot about me and anatta's friendship .
then i teared .

after that we went our for awhile since b'day celebration was cancelled .
clung onto her arms lik we used to in the past .
suddenly , everythin was perfect .
we had sooo much to talk !
talked and laughed so loud everyone stared at us .
was at ''forever 21'' .
anatta was lookin for CNY clothes .
then i was like ,

me : how cum all these dresses so flowery one ?
anatta : this is fashion now . U DUNNO MEH ?

then she gave me this stuck-up look and we started laughin agen .
den we ended up sayin lotsa times "u dunno meh ?!"

*was still at ''forever 21''
anatta : u know why i keep walkin around in this store ?
me : *rolls eyes*
anatta : ask me why .
me : why ?
anatta : cuz i dun wan to step out of this place w/o buyin anithin !

haha . yeah . but eventually , we walked out of e store w/o buying anything .

bought some bread from breadtalk .
hailed a cab to go to anatta's house .

she finished 4 bread in e cab .
den ate doughnuts [ i ate too ]
den ate burger
den ate low fat oreo biscuits [ i ate too ]
den ate ba-gua [ i ate too ]
den ate mixed nuts .
LOL. we are the eating queens !

was at her house until 7.45pm .
didnt wanted to go back though .
have got so much to talk about .
took some stupid fotos and went back .

what a day .

i love her sooo much . =)

hmm .. wanna apologise ..
for not showing up for the tournament today .
i know how irresponsible it may sound . but ..
yeah .
im sorry .

one thing i still cant understand is that , why cant ppl treat others the way they want others to treat 'em ? ive seen thru u . ive been trying my very best to reconcile with you . but it definitely takes two hands to clap . i no longer want to blame you for backstabbing me then or anything more . i guess this is how it should go . im tired .

im sorry ..

im worried bout u , anatta . i dunno whether if u'd happen to see this but , yes . im very worried bout you . dun leave , will you ? u dun have to change anything bout yourself . we love u for who u are , ta . ive missed you so so much . im sorry . im sorry i didnt spend much time with you . im sorry for not being there when you needed someone . you did not say anything but i know u feel empty and alone . im so sorry , anatta . i really miss those times we had together . swimming at ur condo , the video taking , sec2 camp and of cuz at KFC wher we hugged and cried together . all these would not be forgotten . and no matter wad , u'll always , always , be my best friend . my very best friend .

im sorry ..

im exhausted from all the tournaments n stuff .
im totally worn out man .
muscle pain all over .
and i gotta re-string my raquet soon .
it snapped .
OH WELL .

there are lotsa things for me to do .
revision on maths , physics n chem .
i hardly know wats e teacher talkin about .
booooo

a classmate of mine asked me this particular question during history class .
'' joan , why u dun have boyfren one huh ? ur expectations damn high leh''

well darling dear , i dun think its necessary to have a boyfriend now . im like so damn occupied with wad im doing , i barely have the time for my family . let alone dating . and sad to say ,
if i were to have a boyfren now , i dun think i'd pay alot of attention to him . and its not as if we're gonna last till we get married . so yeah . basically , its pointless . and honestly , i find majority of the guys nowadays a lil' childish . and i dun think i need to have a boyfren to u noe , to be ''in'' . my expectations are not high . cuz i dun even know wad my expectations are . i cant possibly take out a piece of paper n jot it down , and when i meet someone , i cant possibly take out that piece of paper agen n go " car ? check . generosity? check . sense of fashion?
check." if u know wad i mean .

i dunno wad or y am i sayin this .
i feel lik im neglecting the people around me .
in some way or another .
i luv 'em more than anyone else & yet i spend so lil' time wit 'em.
i always reached home lik 7 plus .
and im always doing the same old routine everyday .
i hate to say it . but im definitely sick of it .
had dinner with my grandparents n uncle n of cuz , dad , mom n sis .
and then i realized how much weight grandpa [mom's side] had lost .
and i look into those grey eyes of his which he complained is gettin blurry .
and i started to ask myself ''wad am i doin?''
yes . i sometimes get so carried away from my stuff and i dunno wher im heading to .


i guess i should do somethin bout this .