Happy Birthday Linda!

School's pretty good today(: Had extra Math lessons after school. Yeah, i couldn't do much and one of my classmates volunteered to help me then slowly, 5 other classmates and Mr Raju came and helped me too. Yeah, i felt kinda bad. I took quite long to understand and they were cracking their heads, trying to think of the easiest way to make me understand and guess what? They were sweating luh! Ofcourse, Joan is still growing in the area of Patience. I kinda flared up and nearly gave up but they were extremely nice and patient towards me, asking me to read the questions slowly etc. I teared after the lesson cuz i really feel very bad. Did a 'lil self condemning but was okay after siying words of encouragement(: Love my classmates to bits and pieces. Thankyou guys(:

Am pretty packed up with lotsa stuffs everyday. But i know that im doing it for a good cause. Pray for me, people. I need prayers(: So before you click that little X at the top right hand corner of this window, pray a 'lil short prayer for me alright?

For those who had asked me if im tired and if im able to cope, just wanna let you guys know ''No worries'' (: Joan is still hanging on. Promise i'll never give up.

Goodbye and Hello

Goodbye to the old. Hello to the new.
It's hard, i know. But let's promise to not look back. We'll strive forward together

I know Daddy has been reading my blog very often
Therefore, this post is to say hello to him

*Waves hands frantically
HEY DADDY!!!!!!!!!
I know you're reading!!
Heh Heh Heh

Out of three schools, we won two schools for NorthZone Badminton Match (CompassVale Sec & Woodlands Ring Sec) and we're going to the next round! Hurray! The reason why I'm so happy is because this is the very first time that our school's badminton girls team actually made it to the second round. I still remember how Zhangyan, Zhanqi, Guohan, Yinkay and i pleaded our teachers with a badminton coach since sec one. And up till now, we still do not have any badminton coach. Apparently, our school think that it's unnecessary. Yeah, like how do you expect us to win when you don't even want to get us a coach. When we lose, they give us the ''I told you so'' look. When we win, they just congratulate us, but still, refuse to get us a coach. How ironic. But i guess this year we had really proved ourselves to the school. Well done, girls!

School's as great as ever(: I seriously enjoy going to school every morning, although i pretty much drag myself from the bed every single morning. To see the smiles of everybody just warms my heart. Yes, every single morning(:

I shan't cling on to unnecessary stuffs. I shall just flow together with God and go wherever He wants me to. I know, for sure, that He's gonna bring me through anything and everything. It's time to say ByeBye to the methods and ideas i've used in 2007. It's over. It's old. This is a new land. A new phase. With the help of God, I'm gonna crack my head and come up with creative and attractive ideas to connect others to this Family.

''Father, I really am very grateful to all that you've done and all the fruits and blessings that you've poured down not only in my life, but also in my group. I just can't thank you enough. Use me even more than last year. Bring me to even greater heights. Push me not to my limit, but BEYOND my limits! Allow and entrust me to do things i never ever thought i could. I am so sure that when i take a step back and see the whole picture, i would be so overwhelmed, amazed and awed by you. Use me like you never did, O god. I thank you in advance. In Jesus' name, Amen.''

I know perfectly well that i'm not alone in this.
My heart belongs to you, Jesus.

BabyNephew fell off from the bed this afternoon. Yeah, this was what my mommy told me as soon as i came back home from work. So heartpain luh. He's always falling. Knocking his head on the floor etc. He's coming to 11months old but already had countless of blueblacks on his forehead month after month. Just a few weeks ago, i actually dreamt that BabyNephew fall off from the bed too. Urgh. Scary. But mom said that he only cried for awhile. Hope he's fine.

Gosh, NorthZone Badminton Tournament is starting from tomorrow. I know i should have confidence and all, but it's for sure that we'll lose. We're competing against very strong schools like Xinmin and Compassvale Secondary. I played singles last year but im tagging with Yinkay to play doubles this year. It's been a loooonnnggg time since i've trained with her, let alone partner with her. Whatsmore, i haven't been turining up for training for very long due to extra lessons and ministry. Gee, the thought of not training but going for tournaments just freaks me out. Ohwell. I shall just put in my best. Even if i lose (which i most probably would) , i would still be lifting my chin up high(:

An even good news:
When i left home for work this evening, Daddy told me some stuff 'bout mom converting to Christianity soon and very soon. Dad said latest by nextyear. Mom's good friends and boss are all very fervent Christians. I guess God is using AuntyDoris and AuntyAnnie to influence my mom. Mom did not tell me anything but she spoke to dad last month. She was wondering what she was praying all these years and daddy answered ''Statues.''. I think Dad believes in Chrisitianity as well. I was all smiles when dad told me this piece of good news. I would be elated if both my parents, or rather, my whole family which includes my sis, nephew, uncle, grandpa and grandma, my Dearest ones, decides to acknowledge and invite Jesus into their lives. Imagine the whole family sitting at the dining table, saying grace or settling down and praying for each other. Last month, i even heard mom telling someone on the phone how i've changed when i became a Christian. She even asked me to bring BabyNephew to our church when he's older and encourage me to invite my sis to church! Amazing! I used to think that it is impossible. But seriously, God is OBVIOUSLY moving in this family. This day will come. I just know it will(:

I shall go hit the books after posting this.

Didn't turn up for school today. Went to get lavender to the replacement done for my IC. Fortunately, i only needed to pay $60 instead of $100. Yeppy. I was and still am very happy cuz it's been a looongggg time since i went out with my family members. Mommy, Daddy, Sis, Grandma and Nephew. Ohh, my sis even changed my Nephew's name. Daryl =.= She initially wanted ''Darrel'' but later settled with ''Daryl'' instead. I bought a haversack! Like, finally! My poor shoulders no longer have to suffer. Balanced shoulders!

Kinda sad that i didn't went to school actually. Hahaha i seriously miss school today. Miss my Buddy in class (TanSiying) as well. My eyelids were twitching the whole day. Bet you missed me. :P Some friends even smsed me and tell me that the class was quite quiet without me. Or rather, my horendous/terrible/horrible/earth-shaking laughter. Hahaha.

Ohwell, Joan did rather badly for her Math Test.
I know, it's not at all surprising but it still makes me frustrated to see that kinda result. It's not as if i've pinned high hopes on getting a good grade, but .. Nevermind. Amidst all, there's still something to thank God for. Thankyou for those who had encouraged me. ''Jiayou the next time!'' , ''Good effort!'' . Hahaha, somehow, it makes everything so much lighter and i feel so much better (:

I kinda like the ''system'' i have with Siying. Haha, her weaker subjects are my stronger subjects and my weaker subjects are her stronger subjects. And so, we help each other with our work.
Thankyou Girl, for your coaching in Math and Science. I really appreciate it (:

Achievers, Badminton Tournaments, Self Revision, Ministry. Gosh, there are so many things that needs to be done. So many things, so little time.

God, i really need you in this. Give me strength.. I could never be able to complete these without you.

''Siao Char Bo''
My new nickname in 5N3(:

Joan walked to school this morning! Like, whattt? I was late for the meeting in the morning and the bus just left so i decided to walk, or rather, brisk walk to school. Three Bus-stops away. *Tap on back . Well done la , joannnnn.

Siva was very mean.The whole class stood up to greet Mr Raju, and when he asked us to sit down, Siva pulled the chair away and Huichan landed real hard on her butt and the whole class ended up laughing, including me (Oops) DominicWong laughed the hardest and Siva ended up getting lots of punches and slaps from Huichan.

Time pass really quickly in school this year. Hope it will remain like this throughout the entire year. For once, I enjoy Math class. Thankyou, TanSiYing, for your coaching. You could have vomited buckets of blood. English Class is also interesting. For me, that is. I hear my other classmates complaining that it's very boring but i think Mr James's a very nice and patient teacher. Chinese class is even superb. It's my own free time since i've already sat for my O's chinese last year. Humanities's great! I get to sit with my Bestfriend, what do you think?

Urgh, i love school!
Love the Babes and Hunks in 5n3 too(:

-The thought of it brings me to tears easily
However, for the Kindom's sake, i will obey..




Im quite worn out physically. But really refresh spiritually.
These few days have been my ''thinkin' days''. Again, numerous question marks popped out and again, i went lying on my bed, answering, or rather, asking God to answer my every question and doubts.
I tried thinking of living my own life without Jesus. It's just impossible. Sure, i'd have more fun. I'd have more time. I'd have more freedom. I'd have lesser responsibilities. I'd have lesser complaints of being tired. I'd have lesser things listed in my organizer. However, that also means that i'd have lesser love. I'd be less nicer as a person. And i know perfectly well that ultimately, i'd be the one who lose out.

I'm addicted to you, Jesus.
My heart belongs to you.

Hello Earthlings(:

Was all smiles when i first stepped into school. Lookin' at the familiar faces really brightens up my day. Was even happier when i got to eat the malay rice during recess. Was elated when i saw anatta before giving her a hug.Like, finally! Oooh and i'm actually in the same class as her for Combined Humanities! Yeepee! The only sad thing was that MissNg's not with us. After being our form teacher for 2years, i really miss her. She'd left to ChongBoon Secondary): There are some missing classmates as well. They couldn't make it to Sec5. It's really sad. The class's so small now.

However, i really had a great awesome-licious time with my classmates. We made our way to the cafeteria together and we were really noisy can. It's so nice to see the class being so united after not seeing each other for quite some time.

I'm really lookin' forward to school even more. For once, i'm actually lookin' forward to hitting the books though im quite sure i would be dead bored very soon. Heh(:

Was preparing a teaching for tomorrow's caregroup just now. This particular teaching was taught by 2inc during Clm on september. God spoke to me 'bout different things this time round.

- ''Investment''
Many a times, one can easily forget 'bout the goodness of their Saviour. The One who pulled them out right from their darkest and deepest pit. The One who gave them directions. The One who guided them through almost anything and everything. They forget the values behind all that they are doing and see it as a ''chore'' or a ''routine''. Instead of seeing it as somethin' that is listed in ur ''To-do list'' , why not see it as an investment? Somethin' that is worth ur whole life? Jesus went through everythin' in exchange of your Salvation. Does it take alot for you to take a time out from your timetable/ busy schedule? No, i dont think it's too much.

- ''If whatever that you're holding on to is not worth dying for, it's not worth living for''
Isn't this logical? If whatever you're holding on to is not gonna be with you together in your grave, then it's pointless. It depends la. Sure, having good grades and going out to strive for succes and bringing some money back home is okay. In fact, it's great! But what i mean here is that passing glories will fade with time. Ultimately, it's not your certificates and trophies that determines your ticket to Heaven.

- ''It's not 'bout the actions. The values are to be understood first''
Basically, your focus, values and perspective determines your actions. For example, if you know that what you're doing is for eternity (values and perspective), you'd go all ways (actions) to do it because you know that it's worth it. If you think that God is not real and Jesus dying on the cross for men is just simply a story, you wouldnt at all go evangelise and everythin' yea? To change someone's actions, you got to first store in values in it, will then their mindset and perspective change, leading them to chage in their actions.

- ''God will help you to understand at the right time. At the meantime, give your all to obey''
Many times, we're asked to obey without full understanding. It can be quite hard, i know. God never fails. If you dont obey, you're actually indirectly, or rather, directly telling God that He's not God and you are. Simply put-God is God and you are not.

- ''In order for God to move, we need to first know God''
How do we have faith when we dont know God? Like every other relationships, it's a two way communication. God's hands are stretched out, it's now up to you to hold his.

All in all, God is never busy sprinkling gold dust.He's here.
Desire and God will work accordingly.
Believe and God will bless(: