Was woken up by yet another unpleasant surprise.

Nephew fell down and got his head hit against the chairs at the void deck
Grandma was so guilty that she cried
There's a small hole at Nephew's nose bridge, between his eyes
Fortunately, stitches werent necessary.

My Faith's being tested
Thankyou for the smses
Thankyou girls, for the audio messages/songs/encouragement
It really got me going on

I will stand strong
Please keep my family in prayers




Jesus, if you can make the blind see, the lame to walk, the deaf to hear,
then show me that you can heal my Dad and Nephew too.

Daddy's hospitalized.

The whole incident which took place in the afternoon at home kept repeating itself in my mind.
I held his hands and they were cold. Called for him but he didn't respond.
Regained consciousness and fainted for a couple of times.
Accidentally scalded himself when he fell to the floor.
''Throwing fits'' , ''Low blood pressure'' , I heard them say.
And then Daddy was pushed out of home in the orange stretcher.

For a moment, I thought I'd lost him.

Rushed to the hospital in the evening.
Saw Daddy.
Pale and thin.
I am not sure, but he had teary eyes.
Waited for Mommy to rush over from work for two hours.
Everyone was busy in the hospital.
Condition of Daddy's still unknown.



God, I know, everything's in control in Your hands.
But please.. Don't take him away too soon..
Not now.

Same places. Same people.
Yet it's so different.
But still.

I am blessed.Very blessed. Extremely blessed.
Judging from the surface, I don't seem to have what most people would want or crave to have.
I'm not wealthy, no much beautiful features, pea- brained (serious, im quite sure bout that) , not very academically inclined, careless, absent minded and the list goes on and on and on and on and on and ZzZz...
But it dawned upon me on Saturday that, I am extremely rich. This indescribable deep sense of ''richness'' that overwhelmed me for a few good minutes.

People.

The reason why I am able to live each day with Hope and Optimisim, besides God, it's definitely people.The words that were spoken. The tap on the shoulder. The stroke on the back. The look in the eye. The slience which spoke a thousand words.

They say life's a journey of Goods and Bads. I really thank God that through the goods, I had people to share my joy and celebrate with, and through the bads to share my sorrows and especially those who 'grabbed' some of my burden and weighed it upon their very own shoulders willingly or rather sometimes, secretly without me knowing. I consider myself lucky, despite the misfortunes and unhappiness in life, that I really have very good genuine friends in and out of church. I can't say that I am very experienced about this whole life-thingy. Im young, and still growing. Each day's like another opportunity for me to explore and venture. But I also thank God for those people who weren't really very nice to me. Somehow, knowingly or unknowingly, I recognize them as people who had moulded me for who I am today. At least, till I accepted Christ and regonized who my Savior is. Though I might be really young then, they made me realized that life wasn't a bed of roses. That there wasn't much love around in this world, let alone sincere & genuine ones. Perhaps it's all beacause of the many bad things that happened in life then that made me realized the love of God even more. A huge contrast, I would say.


This is just a random post with my quite-scrambled-thoughts.
If you geddit, you geddit. If you don't, it doesnt matter anyway(:

I went to service with a heavy heart this morning.
Wouldn't elaborate why but y'know, I realized that perhaps all these while I've been like a dog, chasing its own tail, twirling 'round in circles, panting and sweating, makin' the most effort, but heading to nowhere. Each time the same issue surfaces, I tell myself ''Why not give it another try? Why not let's start anew again? There's no harm giving it another chance, does it?'' Then the hard truth slaps right on my face and when I was just about to go back to my naive self again, this voice screams right into my head ''JOANHOE! Wakey wakey! Time to move on! ''

It hurts.
It aint easy.
But I know this is the best.
When nothing is the best solution, then taking a step back might be the next best soultion.

Indeed, Fathers know best. During worship in service, He comforted and mended my brokeness.
That divine touch. Totally indescribable. Am worn out, but I am glad that I am 'stretched' . I renewed my faith with God today and it feels good. (''Like renewing contract ah?''-says my sheep) Haha. The last thing I want is to stay stagnant. To be in the same state and condition. I am extremely disgusted and totally abhore my old habits and ways. Seriously, I can't imagine how God could put up with that. When I start to think about it, I simply can't help but go ''Ewwwww''' and ''YUCKSSSSSSSSS''


Ohh and I just discovered something(: When one needs encouragement, one could try encouraging others first. It helps! I didn't really expected encouragement, but I was writing some cards for our unit's Core team members and before taking the pen, I told God that Im not gonna write for the sake of writing with plain ''Jiayos'' and ''Complete CG08!'' or ''XXX school for Jesus!''. Instead, I want to write specifically and thanking them from the deepest depth of my heart which I think are different from others but had impacted many. At first I was worried that I would not be able to thnk of anything to write. But as soon as I start writing the first sentence, it all became so smooth. And as I thank them with a heart of gratitude and appreciation, I realized that I am actually wearing a smile while writing it. And as I encourage, I myself am very much encouraged by the spirit of the people, the extra mile they went for others, and simple everyday decisions making which reflects and speaks volume of their values and love for God. Amazing(:



I will stand strong, for nothing outweighs my fears, worries, problems & hindrances! :D

Storms are finally here. Yahoooo!
That just meant that my Faith level will increase & there are gonna be more breakthroughs.
To sum it all up, it's time for growth (:


After all these while, I've learnt to not get panicky/overly-worried/concerned/frustrated/think about ''whys''. Rather, I am just gonna draw strength from God and let Him be my guide. Alright man. I am excited to where He's gonna lead me to :D


O's are gonna be over soon! Yay! I can finally bury myself with good books !

HoHoHoHoHo!

Two days ago, my parents bought me a new phone as a belated birthday gift and I was happily meddling with it and stuff. Thereafter, my Mom asked me if there were any nice songs from my phone and asked if I could send it to her 'cuz her phone's song list was rather empty. Then I went scrolling down the hundred plus list of songs I had in my phone and marked some of them which I think Mom would like, and thennmn, I saw ''Dao Gao 祷告'' which was written from this guy from the adults grp in Hope. I of course, wouldnt let go of this golden opportunity. So I marked it. Then I heard my Mom who's sitting quite far away from me said ''Dont send me those Jesus Jesus songs huh.'' I grinned.



Here's the interesting part (:
Just a few hours ago, my Mom came back from work,

Mom: Ehh, I told you not to send Christian songs to me the other time, didnt I ?
Me: Woo.. Did I?
Mom: Ya.. the what... Dao gao.
Me: Ohh.. I think I marked wrongly.
Mom: It's a very nice song.
Me: *STUNNED really?
Mom: Ya. The lyrics ..
Me: *Jaw dropped. Made you tear??
Mom: Ya (She said it embrassingly, of course!)


Hahahaha! I was leaping with joy within, I tell you! That's not the end alright. Here's the best part after she came out from the shower.

Mom: Does it come together with a disc?

HAHAHAHAHAHA! YAYYYYYYYY! HoHoHoHoHoHoHo!
Oh God, please plase, prompt her to ask songs from me again!!!