Right.

I did not stomp off from istana park out of anger. I needed to rush home like real fast. Joan is fine. However, i dont deny that i was angry la. Just many many many problems surrounding me. Sorry Joyce, i shoved you aside, i didnt mean it. I guess this is the first time i'm so mad in my entire life. Haha. I felt really down. Like in the deepest deepest pit. In the journey home, I had a loooonnnngggg heart-to-heart conversation with God.

Joan: ''God , I thought you promised me that you'll never give me anything that's too heavy for me to bear? God, it's really choking me. It's so suffocating.''
God: ''I look highly on you, My child. When did i ever go back on my words? You can pull this through.''

There's a patch of grassland with tress just opposite khatib bus-stop which i've always thought that it's quite beautiful. I was sitting there, waiting for the bus. Then God spoke again.

God: ''All these creations are created by me. I am the creater and I had created everything in this earth. I , too , have created you. ''

I was dumb-founded.
I went speechless.
God's voice was in me throughout the entire journey.

Still, I did not speak. I went home with a heavy heart , it weigh like tons. Got home , went to the washroom and started bathing. After a short while, i just broke down and cried my whole heart out. Like, really cry out. This is the first time im crying out to God. Most of the time, it's just those silent cry. Just tears streaming down my cheek but this time was entirely different. I went like ''God...God..God...'' I knew i did not have to say much because God knows and understands everything. My whole heart just went out for Him and no, im not exaggerating. And i had experienced something really really really amazing! I shall not reveal until my teaching for the girls this saturday. You girls would be awed, im sure(: