im exhausted from all the tournaments n stuff .
im totally worn out man .
muscle pain all over .
and i gotta re-string my raquet soon .
it snapped .
OH WELL .

there are lotsa things for me to do .
revision on maths , physics n chem .
i hardly know wats e teacher talkin about .
booooo

a classmate of mine asked me this particular question during history class .
'' joan , why u dun have boyfren one huh ? ur expectations damn high leh''

well darling dear , i dun think its necessary to have a boyfriend now . im like so damn occupied with wad im doing , i barely have the time for my family . let alone dating . and sad to say ,
if i were to have a boyfren now , i dun think i'd pay alot of attention to him . and its not as if we're gonna last till we get married . so yeah . basically , its pointless . and honestly , i find majority of the guys nowadays a lil' childish . and i dun think i need to have a boyfren to u noe , to be ''in'' . my expectations are not high . cuz i dun even know wad my expectations are . i cant possibly take out a piece of paper n jot it down , and when i meet someone , i cant possibly take out that piece of paper agen n go " car ? check . generosity? check . sense of fashion?
check." if u know wad i mean .

i dunno wad or y am i sayin this .
i feel lik im neglecting the people around me .
in some way or another .
i luv 'em more than anyone else & yet i spend so lil' time wit 'em.
i always reached home lik 7 plus .
and im always doing the same old routine everyday .
i hate to say it . but im definitely sick of it .
had dinner with my grandparents n uncle n of cuz , dad , mom n sis .
and then i realized how much weight grandpa [mom's side] had lost .
and i look into those grey eyes of his which he complained is gettin blurry .
and i started to ask myself ''wad am i doin?''
yes . i sometimes get so carried away from my stuff and i dunno wher im heading to .


i guess i should do somethin bout this .