I remember how Michelle & I would use the money that Daddy had left for dinner to buy sweets & tidbits.
I remember how Michelle & I would skip Chinese dance during Primary school & go play badminton instead.
I remember how Michelle & I used to pen down each & every ‘lil naughty things we’d done to each other and use it for blackmailing.
I remember how Michelle & I used to have the exact hair cut and people would mistake us for being twins despite the height difference.
I remember how Michelle & I were punished to kneel in front of the wall ‘cuz we fought despite the countless of warnings from Daddy.
I remember how Michelle & I used to stay over at Grandpa and Grandma’s place every weekend.
I remember how Michelle & I used to have pillow fights at night.
I remember how Michelle & I would follow Grandma to shop for CNY clothes/shoes & Michelle would cry at the end of the day ‘cuz I had my pretty shoes while she didn’t. Blame it on her large feet.
I remember how Michelle & I used to wait at the bus stop under our block for Mommy to return from work so that we could go to the library together.
I remember how Michelle & I held on to each other after waking up in the morning. I forgot why.
I remember how Michelle had piggy-backed me when I was crying alone in the living room.
I remember how I would stand in front of Michelle with arms stretched out whenever she gets caned for being naughty & how I’d be mad at her when she doesn’t do the same for me.
-Then I don’t know what happened. Everything changed.-
When I was younger, I’d think of being my sister’s bridesmaid when she gets married in future. You know, help her out with her gown and make up and stuff like that. I am still holding on to this dream.
I never told her I loved her. I thought there wasn’t a need. I took her for granted when I was younger & now that she’s not here, I long for her presence. Just give me her presence, God..
Nothing more than that.
I miss you, JieJie..
Very very badly..