Im dedicating this post to my beloved sheep, Melissa Tan Shi Min Faith (Far left)

My oh my. I looked at this photo and i went speechless for a few seconds. I never knew or realized how time could fly this fast. I always hear people say ''Time flies, time flies..'' but i never really got to experience it. Now i do.

You were my first sheep. I was reluctant to becoming a shepherd simply becuz i couldnt see myself taking care of someone. However i really thank God for giving me you as my first sheep. You never gave me problems. You are open with corrections. You are always understanding and patient with me.

Thankyou for all your cards and letters. Those words of encouragement and affirmation really spurred me on throughout this entire race, i have absolutely no idea how to thank you enough.

X29 camp was one of the memorable moments i have with you. After singing ''I love this family of God'' , you came towards me, arms stretched widely and gave me a hug. We held on to each other so tightly, i thought we could both vanish into thin air. It wasnt really the hug that touched me. It's those words, my dear. When you told me with that shaky and trembling voice of yours then that you loved me and that you could never do without me. Do you know what? The thing was, i didnt do much. I simply just stood there, encouraged you, spurred you on and gave you a slight push when you needed it. You overcame practically everything by yourself. Yes, indeed you've had your falls. However, you've stood tall throughout it all. It's just such a pleasure to see you grow from a timid shy little girl to one who dares to step out to share the gospel and is so crazy about God.

Joyce told me you're gonna move on to tertiary and for that minute, i just felt nothing. I had expected it coming. But i never knew that it's that soon. Another challenge was how to break the news to you.

Then came the day to tell you the truth. We've all expected this to come. But i guess somehow we both tried to shove it aside and carry on as though no change would take place. I prepared no script. I just broke you the news, tell you when's gonna be your last service, told you how thankful and grateful i am to you. I never expected myself to cry. For a few minutes, we just sat there, wiping away our tears, hoping somehow that we could wipe away this truth as well.

Till now, to tell you truth, i still have not let this news sink into me as yet. You are my first sheep, and the first to leave me after all. The thought of not having you so frequently by my side just seem to have a giant crater in my heart. It's God's calling. We gotta obey. You gotta move on. God has the best plans for both you and i. So just grit your teeth for a 'lil while and you'll soon understand.

Thankyou for tolerating my self-praise
Thankyou for accepting me right from the beginning
Thankyou for your words

Thakyou for your gifts
Thankyou for your hardwork

Thankyou for loving me

Thankyou for serving God so fervently

Thankyou for growing so much in Christ.

Thankyou for you.

Darling Dear, just like there are many commas in our lives, this is yet, another comma. It isnt a full-stop yet. Not so soon. You're gonna continue to shine and have countless of breakthroughs in life. You're gonna blossom like you never ever thought you could. Continue to stand strong and i'll assure you that you're gonna be okay.

Here's my promises to you.

If you ever feel like you're walking a path alone, which you most probably wouldnt becuz you have God,

call me and i'll be there to hold your hand and walk with you.

If you ever need someone just so you could pour out your sorrows and confide in,

im gonna be there.

If you simply just long for a presence of someone,
turn back,

you'll see me with arms widely stretched out.

I promise.

Lastly, I've wrote to you countless of times but i never got the courage to say it to your face.
Sheep, Iloveyou..