''Do they see Jesus in me
Do they recognize Your face
Do i communicate Your love
And ur Grace
Do i reflect who You are
And the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus ,
Jesus in me
Well i wanna show the world
That You are the reason i live and breathe
So You'll be the One that they see
When they see me ''
I like this song . I love the lyrics even more . It's true . When people see me , they see me as Joan . But i also want them to see Jesus THROUGH me . IN me . Isn't it great? When people see Jesus in you through your own life testimony ? Through your words and actions ? People are like that . Once you do somethin' that somehow harm or hurt them negatively , they're gonna condemn and dislike you for a very long time , sometimes even for the rest of their lives . But when you do somethin' nice for 'em , be it somethin' small or big , they'd most probably appreciate it but they're not gonna remember it for a long time , let alone for the rest of their lives .
Met up Joyce for shepherding Yesterday at Toapayoh before going to work . I really love the way she teach me . The enthusiasm and excitement she have for God . I wasn't doing really well for one period and i told her everythin' bout it and i don't at all mind sharing it in here .
Somehow , everythin' became like a habit . I saw and did things like a ROUTINE . Like i do it not because i want to do it for God . It's more of i do it because i had to do it . It's somethin' that is listed in my ''TO-DO'' list . Somehow , i just forgot all the values and reasons behind what i was doing . I just did what i had to and i really thought my job was fulfilled . I went for every single Caregroup , I never skipped shepherding nor service and i seriously thought that i was doing Okay . It was only when i was in my room alone , lying on the bed , staring at the ceiling , doing alot of thinking . I realized that i was very tired . Physically , Emotionally and Spiritually . I also felt that i was not a good leader . Even after all the hardwork , effort and outreaching , my group still didn't grow . I felt that i was not a good leader , a good shepherd , a good sheep and even a good friend . I called Joginaup that night and i just cried and told her how i felt . She said it was normal and that she had went through all these before .
''Who said things are supposed to be done in just one way ?
Who said we have to play the same old games in caregroup?
Who said shepherding can be done in only just one style ?
You can never be a perfect leader .
But you had given out your all and had done your best
You can never be a perfect shepherd
You can never be a perfect sheep
You can never be a perfect friend
and the reason's simple .
You're not Perfect .
And you're not gonna be no matter how hard you try
Because you're not Jesus ''
These words were like a tight slap on my face . And i suddenly remembered what Ziying had once said . ''You can never be perfect . But you can strive for perfection'' .
I think it's really dangerous when u see and do things like a routine .
You may be a leader , knowing what is right and what is not , what you should do and what you musn't, all the values and ''principles'' but it might all be just in the mind , but not in the heart .
We really gotta ask God to refresh us every once in a while and if there happen to be any point of time when u're starting to doubt 'bout God , what He can do or if he's real , think again .
Think 'bout his goodness .
Think 'bout your answered prayers .
Think 'bout all your blessings .
Think 'bout how your life was transformed by Him
Nobody wake up every morning feeling God beside them .
But He IS there .
God knows and understands your every problem and difficulties even before you tell him
God is not a God who's lying on the couch , eating potatoe chips
God is not a God who's busy sprinkling Gold dust .
God is a God who understands , loves and cares .
I'm glad i had the answers to my own questions and i'm doing even much more better than i ever had .
My walk with Him is strong .
It better be .
Haha ..
Do they recognize Your face
Do i communicate Your love
And ur Grace
Do i reflect who You are
And the way I choose to be
Do they see Jesus ,
Jesus in me
Well i wanna show the world
That You are the reason i live and breathe
So You'll be the One that they see
When they see me ''
I like this song . I love the lyrics even more . It's true . When people see me , they see me as Joan . But i also want them to see Jesus THROUGH me . IN me . Isn't it great? When people see Jesus in you through your own life testimony ? Through your words and actions ? People are like that . Once you do somethin' that somehow harm or hurt them negatively , they're gonna condemn and dislike you for a very long time , sometimes even for the rest of their lives . But when you do somethin' nice for 'em , be it somethin' small or big , they'd most probably appreciate it but they're not gonna remember it for a long time , let alone for the rest of their lives .
Met up Joyce for shepherding Yesterday at Toapayoh before going to work . I really love the way she teach me . The enthusiasm and excitement she have for God . I wasn't doing really well for one period and i told her everythin' bout it and i don't at all mind sharing it in here .
Somehow , everythin' became like a habit . I saw and did things like a ROUTINE . Like i do it not because i want to do it for God . It's more of i do it because i had to do it . It's somethin' that is listed in my ''TO-DO'' list . Somehow , i just forgot all the values and reasons behind what i was doing . I just did what i had to and i really thought my job was fulfilled . I went for every single Caregroup , I never skipped shepherding nor service and i seriously thought that i was doing Okay . It was only when i was in my room alone , lying on the bed , staring at the ceiling , doing alot of thinking . I realized that i was very tired . Physically , Emotionally and Spiritually . I also felt that i was not a good leader . Even after all the hardwork , effort and outreaching , my group still didn't grow . I felt that i was not a good leader , a good shepherd , a good sheep and even a good friend . I called Jogina
''Who said things are supposed to be done in just one way ?
Who said we have to play the same old games in caregroup?
Who said shepherding can be done in only just one style ?
You can never be a perfect leader .
But you had given out your all and had done your best
You can never be a perfect shepherd
You can never be a perfect sheep
You can never be a perfect friend
and the reason's simple .
You're not Perfect .
And you're not gonna be no matter how hard you try
Because you're not Jesus ''
These words were like a tight slap on my face . And i suddenly remembered what Ziying had once said . ''You can never be perfect . But you can strive for perfection'' .
I think it's really dangerous when u see and do things like a routine .
You may be a leader , knowing what is right and what is not , what you should do and what you musn't, all the values and ''principles'' but it might all be just in the mind , but not in the heart .
We really gotta ask God to refresh us every once in a while and if there happen to be any point of time when u're starting to doubt 'bout God , what He can do or if he's real , think again .
Think 'bout his goodness .
Think 'bout your answered prayers .
Think 'bout all your blessings .
Think 'bout how your life was transformed by Him
Nobody wake up every morning feeling God beside them .
But He IS there .
God knows and understands your every problem and difficulties even before you tell him
God is not a God who's lying on the couch , eating potatoe chips
God is not a God who's busy sprinkling Gold dust .
God is a God who understands , loves and cares .
I'm glad i had the answers to my own questions and i'm doing even much more better than i ever had .
My walk with Him is strong .
It better be .
Haha ..