She thought she was doin' fine
She's been occupying herself with loads of work
She'd been keepin' those negative thoughts aside
Yeah , she really thought she was doin' fine .

Then one day everythin' came tumbling down .
It was then that she'd accepted the fact that she'd lost alot .
It was then that she'd realized that she wasn't strong after all .

She tried to explain how depressed and confused she's feelin' ,
but she couldnt seem to talk to anyone rationally .
At one point , she got all hysterical and couldnt stop cryin' .
It makes others mad cuz they can't help her and it makes her madder cuz she cant tell 'em how to .

She know what it's like to have her mind pushing her in a wrong way
and yet unable to alter that by strength of will .
People walked in and outta her life pullin' strings that nvr seem to be attached to anythin .
All they ever does is make her hurt .

No .. mommy wouldnt stroke her back ..
and no .. she's no longer daddy's 'lil gal ..

She closed her eyes and felt somethin' wet dribbling down her cheeks .
Just then , she felt this hand tapping on her shoulders , tellin' her it's okie .
''You're not alone , '' the voice said .
''Never will i leave you , never will i forsake you . ''


I wrote this in my diary late last night . I always pen down all my emotions when i feel extremely down , happy or ecstatic . wellwell . I have no idea why i'd write this though . I guess once in a while , there'd be this emptiness in each and everybody's heart . i dunno . maybe .. perhaps so .. yes . Bad things happen to us , and sometimes things don't work out or turn out the same way as you expect or want them to . And sometimes you just don't feel like doing anythin , you just want to stay home all day long without any interaction with anybody from outside . I know how it feels , i definitely do .
But somehow , i know that , even if nothin' seemed to work out , as long as u're God's own , none of His sheeps will be ever out of his care ..