Three words . I- give- up .

Yeah . Everythin's over . Im throwing in the towel . I can't deal with crap like this anymore . I feel like the dumbest person ever . Ever felt like you're so loved by people around you and the next moment , they all walk all over you and treat you lik trash ? Ive experienced it . More than that , i should say . You name it . But surprisingly , i feel much more at peace now . People around me gave me that suspicious and worried look . Dont worry , people . Im fine . Im gonna stand tall . Nothin's gonna make me fall . For now , that is . Ha .. yes . was at the verge of runnin to the toilet to cry out loud . But i know perfectly well that emotions can be controlled . Obstacles , difficulties and problems make you grow . Im glad i didnt react the way i reacted last year . It's okie , joan . It's all part and parcel of what teenagers my age have to go through . Who said being a teenager is easy ought to be shot . haha . JUST KIDDIN' !

But honestly , this is what i call LIFE . yeah . Any negative things you can think of , definitely defines LIFE . If LIFE were to be a living person right in front of me , i would have grabbed his neck and slap it several times before i wring it off his head . haha . JUST KIDDIN' !

I feel like there's this invisible hand tapping on my shoulders , tellin me its okie . sigh .
Its so sad . I truly thought things worked out fine . It's kinda amusing how you've helped someone in their life so much and the next thing you know , they're turnin' their backs against you and push you outta their lives . Im so dumb . yes . Tell me about it . How naive am i to think in such a way .

Its oh-so-over .
wanna make me fall ? Bring-it-on !

=)